simplyfaii

poc 2007

2007-05-23T06:59:00.000-07:00

today, we who are privelleged(me,wara hanisah & vibha)were amongst the first few hundred in singapore,and the world presumably, to watch the sneak preview of the much anticipated PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN: AT WORLD'S END!

This show is AWESOME!

Besides 'witty jack' , orlando bloom is undoubtedly the STAR of the show!

TOO HOTTTT!!!!!!!

I almost cried when will got stabbed in the end!
but of course, he came back, suave as ever, especially with the bandana tied around his forehead!
FUCKING HOT can?!?!?!?

Can't wait to get that fantastic photo of him in the last few scenes! major hottie!

And i am SO watching this show again....hopefully on the 4K Digital Screen at GV Vivocity,by next week!
dammit, now i'm already impatient to get my hands on the dvd!

once again, my favourite man for 23/05/2007

IRRESISTIBLE! =)

2007-05-22T08:31:00.000-07:00

spineless self-centered faggothead!

only talk to me when u want to ask me something!
and then, either u pretend to be interested in my life or fill me in with unneccessary details about yours;just to prolong the conversation,and make it seem like we're actually friends.

i curse the day i met you.
no wait!
i must've taken leave of my senses to have ever liked you.
likeD!

and i am NOT in self-denial.

pirates tmr! absolute joy!!!wheeeee!
and i'm officially the proud owner of 5 out of 6 books by judith mcnaught (the historical romance set)!
life couldn't get peachier.
no really.

2007-05-18T20:59:00.000-07:00

i miss mama after 4 days of being motherless.amazing fact!
i actually MISS her nagging at me...that indescribable quality about her voice.
i must be going mad with boredom.

nothing majorly exciting has happened in my life so far.
everything is pretty much rountined.
i'll be resuming work after a weeks' break, on the 28th,at L12(my former dept).

somehow im excited for uni to begin....coz it'll end this perpetual boredom and sense of uselessness i've felt for the past 5 months.
i miss school!the madness,the stress,the hectic lifestyle plus the teachers who make bitching and sleeping totally justifiable!
i guess the prospect of being thrown into an unfamiliar surrounding and meeting new people and facing new challenges does sound exciting.heck that! anything is more exciting than the mundane working lifestyle i currently go through.

i've watched and re-watched millions of movies and yet, my boredom cannot be cured.
i've gone out so much i've lost track of how much i've been spening, but yet...this boredom is unbanishable!!
i've read many novels...lazed in bed for hours at a go...

nothing.

i want something magical to happen.soon.

oh!! i got tix for the sneak preview of the final pirates installment in the trilogy!
this wednesday,3pm, vivocity!!! me and the other 3 lovelies. (=

only thing worth looking forward to.

2007-04-24T04:33:00.000-07:00

i finally found the lyrics to naseny el donia!!lovelove (=

naseny el donia naseny el alam

dawebny habiby w sebny aolak ahla kalam

law alef el donia law alef el alam

mosh momken zay gharamak enta alaey gharam

law aolak eny bahebak

el hob showaya aleek

law sanya ana babead anak

bargaa moshtaa leaneak

domny khaleek wayaya

dawebny we doob fi hawaya

taala neash agmal ayam

kan agmal yom fi hayaty

yom ma abltak ya hayaty

ma edertesh athamel min gheer ma afakar lahza

laeatny badoob fi hawak

khadtny min kol elnas easht fi agmal ehsas

we nseet ya habiby eldonia maak

ahhhhhh

law aolak eny bahebak

el hob showaya aleek

law sanya ana babead anak

bargaa moshtaa leaneak

domny khaleek wayaya

dawebny we doob fi hawaya

taala neash agmal ayam

law aolak

ana shaylak gowa enya wa el donia di shahda alaya

ana ganbak wa bahebak

mosh momken aadar ana ya habiby ansak

batmana el omr yetool wafdal ahebak ala tool

da ana yama helemt akon wayak

ahhhhhhh

law aolak eny bahebak

el hob showaya aleek

law sanya ana babead anak

bargaa moshtaa leaneak

domny khaleek wayaya

dawebny we doob fi hawaya

taala neash agmal ayam

and in a language we can ALL understand:

Make me forget the world, make me forget the people

Melt me my darling, and let me tell you sweet words

If I go around the world, if I go around the people

There is no possiblity to find love like yours

If I tell you that I love you

Love is just to less for you

If I take a minute away from you

I return in the need to see your eyes

Hug me, be mine Melt me and melt in my love

Come and we?ll live the nicest days

If I tell you that I love you

Love is just too little for you

If I take a minute away from you

I return in the need to see your eyes

Hug me, be mine Melt me and melt in my love

Come and we?ll live the nicest days I

t was the nicest day of my life

When I met you, my life I couldn't take it, if I didn't think of you for one moment,

I found myself in your love

You took me from all the people, to live the most beautiful feeling

And, my darling, make me forget the world with you

Aaaahhh

If I tell you that I love you

Love is just to less for you

If I take a minute away from you

I return in the need to see your eyes
Hug me, be mine

Melt me and melt in my love

Come and we'll live the nicest days

I hold you in my eyes, and the world is upon you

I am next to you and I love you

It's not possible for me, my darling, to forget you

I hope my life will be,

To love you forever

I dream to be forever yours .

sweets lyrics!! with weird english at some points-probably due to the lateral arabic-english translation done by the website....

ok so tmr is the manual dexterity test day.im a bit nervous.

my hand movements and eyes BETTER be coordinated properly.that would mean i need sufficient sleep so that i can reach NUS at 8am.

hell...that'll mean waking up at 5am.this.sucks.

2007-04-22T03:27:00.000-07:00

friday: daniel's last day at IRAS.
we girls gave him a ROYAL leaving 'celebration'.
we even gave him a bear hug.
and says dan: "that was the most female attn i've ever received in my LIFE"

aww....well u deserve it for buying us all ferrero rocher and giving us each a personalized note and being sucha gentleman the whole time working there! we'll miss youuuuu!!

so after work, vibha was too distraught by dan's departure to join us for dinner.

woohkay! so me aysha and monyet went to have murtabak at arab st.
yummilicious!
talktalktalkeateattalktalk.............etc.

btw, somebody by the name of syam/sham/shyam gave aysha his number...in hopes of getting to 'berkenalan' with her! maha funny!!

so after stuffing our tummies...we left for the real bhai teh tarik stall.there, once again hanisah was reunited with her fellow cats.she kept jerking and shaking the table everytime she THOUGHT she spotted a cat in close proximity.hehehe.....ur damn entertaining!

then...we explored arab st and i finally 'found' al-majlis! ahahha!!
the belly chains aka 'ching-chings' are super over-priced..like 55 bucks or more! madness!
ooh...and i bought nancy ajram's cd!!! yayyyy! couldn't find elissa's cd thou' =(

and im officially in LOVE with nasseny el donia by ragheb alama!
it is FUCKING nice to listen to!! i have it on repeat on youtube now!!!

and NUS admin is farked up! they obviously do NOT know the difference in meaning of first choice and second choice!ARGHHHHHHH!!!

im gg to think positively...since everything supposedly happens for a reason.

2007-04-19T03:59:00.000-07:00

i have A VERY FUCKED UP LIFE!

i hate fate.
i hate destiny.
i hate uncertainty.
i hate being used.
i hate the WORLD!

coz the world HATES me!

2007-04-14T04:08:00.000-07:00

my life seemed normal up till 5.15pm today.
it still is normal.
its just that i'm in a very very very confused state.

i was already trying to come to terms with not getting shortlisted for medicine,when suddenly i find myself getting shortlisted for dentistry!
opened the letter from NUS after coming home from tuition,and voila!
"we are pleased to inform you that you have been shortlisted for the Dentistry course this year..."
i almost cried with joy!ok im getting a chance to become a doctor here! yippeee!!!!

after 5 mins of pure unadulterated joy and bliss,i suddenly began thinking why i can't qualify for medicine?! if dentistry is more competitive than medicine, how come i got shortlisted for it?
meaning i was almost gd enuf for med....sighs.

ok GENERAL PAPER iS the official bitch of the century.yes.
being a dentist is definitely very specialised....am i really into it?
the first 2 years will be spent with other medical students... only in yr3 n 4 then i'll branch away from them.
ok...i wanna become a doctor.
i AM happy!! thrilled!
now time for alot of research and telling my silly self that this is THE golden opportunity for me to become a doctor...no matter what kind of speciality it is!

god help me.im CONFUSED LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS AND ONLY YOU CAN TELL ME WHY!why im not a peace despite having every reason to be at peace.

2007-04-04T05:29:00.000-07:00

im almost hyperventilating right now.wHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN 'DOCUMENTS NOT RECEIVED'??!?!?!?!?
U BLOODY GOATS!
i FUCKING submitted that godforsaken envelope on fucking sunday ok?!?!
after those 3 days of HELL that i went through,u do NOT tell me my envelope has not yet been received!!
and its already 3 working days u fags! u fucking find my envelope or i fucking sue your entire department for being lousy thickheaded bumS who are INCOMPETENT in handling something as simple and brainless as noting down WHEN the document was received ACCURATELY!!!

inhales deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeply.

ok slightly better now.

these past 3 days working at SGH's A&E dept have been super fun.
and me and aysha are staying over there tonight,just so as to be able to experience the real 'emergency' cases at night!
FUNFUN!!
our parents kasi pulak tu.....yayyyyyy!!!
more updates over the weekend.
ciao.

2007-03-30T23:43:00.000-07:00

turkish guys are fucking hottttttt!
saw this random video on youtube and i tell u...they are bloody hot! i wanna migrate to turkey!!!

back to reality....well i've been madly busy these few days.settling my uni application.the EIS route requires a thousand million documents to be handed in, and i only found out on wednesday night,at the stroke of midnight.
so thursday was majorly hectic.
i was literally touring singapore;rushing from tanjong pagar to clementi and then to eastcoast and then to tampines and then back home.
i SWEAR im never going to leave things to the very last minute ever again.
my sleep was being disturbed and all.....mind constantly working even when im resting in peace(or so i thought...)

i CAN'T WAIT FOR SUNDAY TO BE OVER!

going over to NUS, collect my letter from the good professor, and finally dumping the huge godforsaken envelope into the submission box!!
im gg to treat myself to famous amos cookies after that and go home and sleeeeeeep!

2007-03-26T23:25:00.000-07:00

ok so today and wednesday, me n vib dun haf2 go to work.coz apparently we're sooooo efficient that there's no more forms to be screened.dammit.

woke up at 1pm today.ahhhhhh.....simple luxuries in life.
i miss sleeping for prolonged hours and dreaming of sweet nothings!(=

meeting wara at 4pm later.we're heading for the gym at tampines and try to shred off all the fats accumulated thus far.
and shuddup hanis...im not fat.i barely put on weight laa....i just feel thoroughly unfit!silly girl.
maybe watching mr bean's holiday after that...yay!!i need a good laugh tonight!

hanisah has been EXTREMELY mischevious this past week...so i have to blog about her.
after work, me aysha vibha and monyet decided to have satay at haig road.
so the 4 friends set off on their journey,with eager faces and growling tummies.
we took 21 there and met monyet's and aysha's latest crush in the bus.he was eyeing them throughout the journey to geylang.hahahahahah!

after alighting the bus, we had to cross several junctions.and aysha nearly killed me while crossing the road.pfft.
and so, we were walking across the carpark..happy2 talking...when suddenly hanisah gave a mighty loud shriek! she literally froze in her steps."OMG LION!" said her.
as we all know, lions can only be found at the singapore zoo; they don't roam the streets of this country.we are NOT living in the freaking safari!! BUT of course, we can all emphatize with the shock the lion in question gave hanisah. naturally, the lion was nothing more than an innocent cat, whose only crime was to be in hanisah's path.
she's sooo funny i swear!

when we arrived there, we found out that both satay stalls were closed.wth laa....
so we trudged over to the teh tarik corner, which was just around the corner(silently laughing here) and settled ourselves down.the aroma of goreng pisang and cempedak goreng filled the air and drifted into our nostrils...whetting mine and hanisah's appetite BIGGGG time!
so, me n vib had 10 satay sticks each! my fellow friend with an appetite as huge as mine (=

after eating, somebody by the name of 'ninja turtle' was trying desperately to be hanisah's new best friend.even though the random pakcik gave it some charred chicken leftovers to eat, it chose to wander over to hanisah's seat and lie comfortably near her feet. for those of you wondering what exactly 'ninja turtle' is...lemme enlighten you .ninja turtle is a very tame and adorable cat, with clean white fur and lovely yellow-green eyes that compliments her majestic white coat!she is indeed very keen for companionship.she is extremely friendly and in dire need of hanisah's exclusive friendship.

ahhh...so vib and me had a lovely time capturing that classic moment of hanisah freaking out in a public coffeeshop on camera. she was sitting cross-legged and practically tugging on aysha's sleeve the entire time the poor kitty was lying down behind her chair. it was A MOMENT to remember;hanisah sweating profusely despite sitting under the fan and having that scared-to-death look pinned on her face for the entire 10mins! laughed sooo much ahh! her fear of the innocent cat aided our digestion immensely!
and so, the whole way back, we kept saying MEOOOOWWWW and doing other catty actions just to spook her even more.hahaha..u're hilarious my dear.....

i did not see the photocopying boy yesterday before leaving.boohoo.
he is just an eyecandy.i am in need of eyecandies.it does not mean i like him.

psssst. i think i liked you last time.i think.

2007-03-25T06:44:00.000-07:00

attended a wedding yesterday.
the bride's makeup was not very fantastic.conclusion--> must get damn good make-up artist/brand for my wedding.or else the young ones will bitch about me.yes.

siti belanja-ed me,baba salleh and aunty fau at swensens after that.the swensens at t2 has got lovely sofas that u simply sink into,thus making one reluctant to budge after the meal.
aunty fau got her friend arriving from jakarta to buy TEN krispy kremes. they are like the best doughnuts everrrr.even lovelier than dunkin donuts.superrr lovely.comparable to those from the donut factory at raffles city.

ok moving on from doughnuts....

today was rather interesting.
woke up in the nick of time to make it for my first ever arabic class.
amal made a great example throughout the lesson--like me and aminha would relate whatever words we learnt and apply it on her.
but the girl takes it all in her stride and declared to be rather proud of being part of our learning process.ahaha...utter rubbish!

so after the class,rushed off to town to meet my darling lina....whom i've not seen for 3 effing weeks! so it was talktalktalkeattalktalktalktalkshoptalktalktalk.
yea we had THAT much of updating to do.
and thanks to her club member, we got to enter miu miu at paragon. we were walking around and getting lost in our own fantasy world whereby we could afford everything we see for sale there.....oh! discovered this glorious shop at level3 of paragon--the makeup store! i swear its like the best ever!
the lady tried some black-gold-glitter eyeliner thingy on my upper eyelid and it looks fucking gorgeous,especially against my brown eyes!im soo gg to buy it(i think) after 10th april!
after that,we walked over to taka and roamed about for icecream.then, we realised stooopid andersen's icecream had closed down! bodoh!! and the cold storage did not seem to carry any ben and jerry's icecream...so we settled for cheap drinks...like mine was a bottle of mineral water for 40cents.*beams*
this reminds me of the woman in miu miu earlier on. i heard the cashier-lady saying "ok ma'am, after discount...the total is 999" im like " WTF!" if u tell me the price is after discount, i expect it to be 9.90! not freaking $999..with no decimal point in between!fucking barking mad! insanity! i won't ever pay that much for a pair of shoes! unless i have a money-printing machine at home....

bought myself those nice cookies from cookieman at the taka basement.it rocks as usual!
so after we had sustenance, we sat at the fountain outside taka,by the pavement...and people-watched. and lina suddenly declared that we should be on the catwalk too after catching a glimpse of the fashion show going on inside the tent behind us! i second that! we are more wekll-endowed than those ridiculously stick-thin models that cavort about the catwalk.anorexic-looking creatures.scrawny homosapiens.(this is the jealousy talking)

and so we said our goodbyes and i reached home around 9.luckily mama wasn't very irked about that.took some clothes wimme and left for siti's place.
i guess i'll be staying here for a while now that my fucked up internet doesn't work at home.
grrr.i miss my bed.

2007-03-22T07:16:00.000-07:00

somebody made me sad tonight.
and angry.sad.angry.

2007-03-21T06:01:00.000-07:00

today i encountered a person who is wifeless,childless,parentless and grandparentless.
vibha declared in awe that he must be god since he has no human relations whatsoever.
and his dad is godfather.
laughed until want to die liddat just now.i teared! and crappy lameass jokes continues as long as ur going thru forms;some submitted by (i swear) brainless idiots!

omg i haf2 blog about my bimbotic bestie(for censorous reasons,i shan't disclose her name, and by so doing,i AM helping her salvage her dignity).

so once upon a time,fai picks up a call from her bestie on a glorious morning. glorious coz her 1-day-old crush was in very close proximity.
anyways,the conversation rotates around how her bestie had successfully gotten her pants ripped somewhere near the crotch area, by an evil bangla who refused to budge..and thus somehow very complexly resulted in her pants getting stuck somehwere.
so she needed me to meet her as she was already very gabra. she wanted to go home.but of course, that was out of the question.she couldn't possibly manage that ride home with semi-torn pants. so i searched everywhere for a clothes shop that was open at freaking 8.30am.there was NONE. so another friend came up with the brilliant idea of using a jacket to cover that censorous spot. and so,with teamwork and ultimate brilliance put into action; we managed to save our dear friend from humiliation.like u owe us ben n jerry's tauu!

this bestie once again displayed her bimboticness when she left behind her cca records and scholarship stuffs in the office, when we were all heading for mendaki to submit our application.*sighs*

note that u r indeed dearly loved despite ur *coughs* dumbness. (=

aysha raped my nostrils yesterday. poor me...stuck with non-virgin nostrils now.arghhhh....that rapist of a brooch ...pegi buang sudah!

i didn't see much of 'craterman' today. if i were to photoshop his facial texture, he'd look damn good!
(ok vib now is the time for u to stop being a baddddd influence!)

im in the mood for satay.
nice hot satay.
please appear before my eyes soon.i shall devour you...yummmmm!

2007-03-19T04:45:00.000-07:00

i invented a new word today--WHORRIBLE.
it is a mixture of the word whore and horrible. (=
im a freaking genius.i KNOW!

today aysha was whiny.like totally whiny.making weird faces the whole time in the train. and she had mr z's delightful company at work for 2 consecutive days thus far.fun kan sha?hehe.

hanisah punked me on saturday night.grrr.ass.

i m now oficially $100 poorer after belanja-ing the whole family at kintamani restaurant.i SWEAR its so fucking expensive!
amal and me terbeliak when we saw the bill.....almost died of shock i tell u...and that was after the discount of $150 and a couple of other stuffs the friendly manager waived for us.

i HIGHLY recommend aysha's very best friend to demand her to belanja him there! (=

ok so work was well...bleah as usual. except that i've now got an eyecandy after 3months at IRAS! like finally! he has been dubbed 'photocopying boy' due to his frequent usage of the machine conveniently located within my viewing range. tralalalalala!
and vib shut up i've got great taste in men ok! boys...men ...wtv! thou my history of eyecandies has not been very... well....fantastic.... =P

oh today me n vib came across thousands of zorro wannabes....who creatively put a big Z on the form instead of writing zero down! cool funky people out there.....brighten up my day.

tmr we're getting free beriyani for lunch!hoooorayyyy! i hope its mutton...dun fancy the chicken one very much.

and porn, i shall invest in a swimming costume.soon.just not now... (=

i feel effing broke.anybody wiling to donate some money to me? those kind kind souls with no use for the extra cash?
a generous spirit who finds joy in giving to others...and expect nothing in return?

2007-03-18T06:58:00.000-07:00

nothing much happened these few days.
my net is still down.
i feel suffocated coz i only have the tv for company now at home.
i NEED to get online...

anyhoos....work has been dull as usual....save for the maddening ways we come up with to entertain ourselves.

everymorning, my first hour at work goes like this.
im always 15mins late--its standard ok!
then i relax2 for awhile...then go up to the 5th floor with the girls to get breakfast,which comprises of teh susu and 2 jemput2 (and the wonderfully colourful kuih lapis!)

then forms forms forms forms.........

lunchtime meet my girls.
then forms forms forms forms.

life is boring.i need to meet new people.toodles.

2007-03-14T04:35:00.000-07:00

did not go to work on both tuesday and wednesday....
spent the whole of tuesday ploughing thru scholarships online...and realised that most of the scholarship application dates were either over or due tomorrow.so i had to rush thru the application.
ooh! and my net at home is officially dead.so i won't be online for a looong time.unless of course i decide to go over to aunty fau's place and use her computer.
I M GOING TO DIE WITHOUT MY MSN I SWEAR!

anyways...decided not to go to work again today...using the excuse that i had to take passport-sized photos for the application forms.and i was tudung-less for the first time in a loong while.
met wara at tamp after getting my photocopying and photo-taking done.OMG i was soooo effing happy at the interchange! i saw DR. HOT there. after alighting from the bus, i looked ahead and voila! there he was, looking hot as ever and looking BACK! and the fact that his family and my family know each other quite well doesn't hurt either! =)
so i was smiling for some time to myself until wara came!
i miss my bestie....*i swear u better feel honoured O-porn*
so spent loads of time chatting at a random cafe at tampines.....nice2.

i dun fancy working life that much now that i've got a stable job.
i wanna go back to studying!
at least, i know that he'll know my name within 6months of me entering NUS...and then, i can boast about dr. hottie being my friend! hahahaha!

fuck my wireless connection.
watching charmed season1 on youtube now.
and tmr...its back to work.darnnit.....

2007-03-12T05:41:00.000-07:00

i can always rely on xinyi's blog to crack me up like mad! honestly....if u're in need of a good laugh,i highly reommend reading her blog!
her latest one about iranians is damn funny!ahaha...

so saturday was hectic madness!
woke up uber early to make it in time for the NUS open house.
okaayy...so like i did not find out anything new from the talks i attended....the speaker for the medicine talk sounded soo bitter about medicine on the whole;its as though he regretted it or sth!
the professor of pharmaceuticals was rather convincingly promoting 'pharmacy' to us.
and i might actually consider it as one of my top 5 choices.
aunty fau spent the better half of sunday trying to persuade me to become a dentist so that she'll get free dental check-ups! funny arh....
science is such a general degree...and i absolutely refuse to be stuck in a lab all my life! and the fact that most ppl who take science usually switch to other professions makes it all the less attractive!
i guess accounting is alright....but NTU supposedly has got the best business school around , not NUS....and SMU is not even an option for me!
and since i might be eligible for a scholarship, i've got to start applying to several and try my luck! hence i'm taking leave from work tmr so that i'll be able to buy time to think this thru'....

problem is,i don't have a clue as to what i want to do in future.
i need divine help.i need someone to say "ok fairuz, this is what i want u to do...."

ok so after the NUS openhouse, we headed back home.
i got to nap for an hour before aysha woke me up to get ready for samar.
and so, i was punctual on one of those rare instances in my life!haha!
they brought in this bellydancer from lebanon who was babatified in my opinion..and she geleks very kasar-ly.on the overall, not bad la! i mean obviously better than i'll ever be!=(
food sucks big time at samar!like seriouslyyy.....
aysha and me and noorie gelek-ed abit here and there...not much dancing coz we were too shagged already.
reached home around 1am! tralalalala......and mama was cool with it since aysha's mum was there too!ahaha yayyy!!

wokeup around 1ish on sunday.lovely sleep =)
then rotted at siti's place till nearly 10pm.had fun with the cousins and hilarious uncles.
i love my family...ooh and this saturday, amal and me have to belanja the whole family at Kintamani Indon Restaurant, since we're supposedly rich coz we're working.
they are blissfully unaware of babi cpf and how they anyhow potong 20% of my hard-earned money! like i soooo did not opt for them to deduct anything fom my pay! shitheads!

ooh...so i learnt a couple of new things at work today.
like how hikmah likes kissing my cheek coz im kissable(so she claims...)
and how bus number 5 also goes to novena.and its a million times faster than lembap 21! whee!!
and how my dumb friends hanisah and aysha loove guessing my friendster password and come up with dumb beyond belief possibilities!
and how im a very efficient worker-even when i find time to slack in aysha's dept for 30mins today.
and how viben loves her job....so much so that she is virtually a jukebox when at work!singing gaily non-stop...imagine the torture my poor eardrums had to endure! from 8am to 5.30pm! *sighs*

oh wells, desperate housewives laterr....

2007-03-11T08:59:00.000-07:00

i had a sudden vision of my future apartment!
after graduating from uni, i'll obviously be working.
and funny how i envision myself looking all corporate..hmm.

ok so i want to live in a penthouse;one that overlooks the city.
the theme for my apartment shall be white/beige-ish....a soothing shade that'll beckon me into my lavish apartment.
i'd like it to be very spacious, with fluffy cushions and furry rugs on the marble flooring.
obviously i'd like a mall in my bedroom, like the one in princess diaries 2!with all my branded clothing(yes i dun plan to live budgetly all my life!) neatly hanging from the closet.they'll prolly be arranged according to colour-imagine different shades of brown grouped together etc.
and shoes!!! jimmy choos and stuart weitzman and prada and guess and ALL! once again, they'll all be heels very obviosuly. maybe i'll be fair and throw in 2 or 3 pairs of birkenstocks as well. just for comfort-wear.

my sofa will be huge and comfy! it'll be facing my huge plasma screen, which will be installed hanging from the wall. i'll prolly invest in one of those osim massage chairs...just so that i'll get a chance to soothe all aching muscles at the end of every hectic day.

my kitchen will be furnished with gadgets that'll make cooking a breeze. since im one hundred times better at baking than at cooking, i'll get myself a brilliant oven so that i'll be able to bake yummy cakes/biscuits on lazy weekends. oh! and i'm soo gonna buy loads of those recipe books for excellent desserts.i've got a sweet tooth...can't blame a girl for that!

my balcony that overlooks the city...will be the perfect spot for me to sip on lemonade on a hot sunny day.
and we must not forget my jacuzzi! it'll be located outside my bedroom(which is on the 2nd floor) for convenience sake!
my bedroom will be fully carpeted.just coz i like the feel of something soft cushioning my precious feet. an it'll be air-conditioned.

this is the apartment where i'll live in during my bachelorette days....i'm not going to marry like immediately after graduating, so i'll have ample time to fully enjoy my luxurious ideal home!yeapp..i wanna live a very high-end life!it'll be a refreshing change!

gosh...i've got such expensive dreams that i frighten myself sometimes!haha!
i still want THE HOUSE!

2007-03-06T06:44:00.000-08:00

vib is funny. seriously funny.she's sooo FUNNY! i really have to emphasize this.
jen is funny too.hikmah is ultimate hyperness....and she talks cock wimme the whole day.
the 4 of us go nuts.in the nutty income tax department. we're nutty tax officers.
we're stuck with a pristine white wall infront of us.like how cool is that? and the cafeteria is just beside my office. so yay to self-declared breaks!
we are encouraged to do our work as slowly as possible coz there isn't enough forms for everyone to screen.
i spend my days playing hangman and bingo.and laughing out of pure boredom.
and having shakira's la tortura on replay-mode half the day.

encountered a rich french dude...who earned more than most people do in their lifetime,wihin a period of 6 short months. he stays near vib. i shall convert him and marry him; he's only 25! brilliant!(this is the boredom talking...)

took 21 to work again. had a whole 40mins to ponder on the most random of thoughts.
i like speed.i always ask my dad to speed up even when he's riding his bike at 100km/h on the highway.i find the sensation exhilirating. so does that make me a speed junkie?
random thought again.
i used to dream of owning a red ferrari sports car.just coz its purportedly the best around.red coz i find it ultra sexy...like in the movies.i can't claim to fancy any mechanical aspect it possesses persay;this is probably attributed to my severe deficiency in knowledge when it comes to cars.

apparently i look equally nice in a light brown tudung, and i dressed very prettily today.
it was sooo effortless honestly! (=

jen calls my hp cover a 'condom' while hikmah protested most vehemently that it is called 'silicon'. crazy colleagues? haha.

discovered the teh tarik corner at geylang sells pretty nice satay.random again.
as you can see, i did not put much thought into this entry. ok,none at all! hah!

watched american pie1 tonight.
it is mighty hilarious!! and so, wara's life is spared...for her great recommendation.

my 'anak rambut's are annoying.they make their debut, more obviously when im wearing tudung.grr....

tmr is syarahan day again. the first i shall attend as a fellow tudungian.hah!
and maybe after, dinner at arab st with the girls.

payday is this friday.hurrayy!
babi cpf...cut 20% of my hard-earned money.babi!

i adjust the tudung on a average of 3 times per day when at work.
i'm such a newbie at this!
ooh...some guy complimented aysha and my skin...funny flirt la he!
said sth about both of us having undergone plastic surgery coz our complexion so flawless!
and then it suddenly occured to him that hanisah and vib we there as well, so he declared magnanimously that all four of us were pretty....aysha now i know what u mean about him!

ama nina is an angel.she ordered nasi beriyani for us for our thursday lunch. i love my aunt.
coz of her, im famous at her dept. hah!
and now, i've got a box to place my stuff at work. ok so the 3 of us share 2 boxes. one strictly for paper-crap and the other for storing foodstuff!

i think i better go sleep now, before i continue typing random nothings.goodnight oh-blog!

2007-03-03T20:15:00.000-08:00

spent the entire saturday at parkway with amal and aminah,and i discovered that aminah is very definitely a replica of my rebellious-self back in my sec3-4 days.
she wants to wear everything her parents would object to....thank god i am sooo over that phase in life and have settled for urm...the very correct path.

got myself a new black wallet(yes i've gotten over my brown-fetish phase and moved on to black as my new must have!) and 2vcds--the 'King & I' and ' American Pie'.wara u better run for ur life if american pie isn't as hilarous as u made it seem to be!

siti and ama nina decided to arrive unfashionably late after attending some wedding at yishun.
so there we were, 3 starved teens awaiting the arrival of ppl who wud belanja us makan.and we waited for a good 3hours,so don't berate me for being impatient and having a monstrous appetite when i finally started eating!

dined at delifrance, where i ordered a chicken ciabatta sandwhich and creme brulee for dessert(ultimate yumness!). after eating, met the other 2 at banquet and went giant-shopping....

oh! and the dumb nyonya over at the frozen-meat section asked me the most absurd question ever!!! she nodded in my uncles' direction and asked '"ur husband ah girl? very lucky ah he, ur very pretty and young summore!"
silence.

after i recovered from my momentary shock i said 'NO that is my uncle! and his kids(amal & aminah) are there!!' and my uncle was already laughing like mad and shaking his head in disbelief!

bloody blind dingdong kukubird!( i am trying very hard not to use the F word here)

other than encountering that bloke of a woman, whose neurons and dendrites have very probably been chilled by her freezing environment...the rest of the night was uneventful.
slept over at siti's house.yeap...me,amal and aminah squeezed into siti's bed and slept!

instead of meeting my 1h deadline to siap and go buy more tudung to expand my tudung collection;which stands at a grand total of 1 currently, i am blogging!
brilliant! amal is gg to skin me alive!!

2007-03-02T02:43:00.000-08:00

nat said: "its the tudung i tell u....it does wonders!"

and so today.most anticipated(not) day in 2007. 'a' level results.
i had no appetite the whole morning.
i was soo bothered.disturbed.
12.30--> got ready to go get results.
2.15pm: wara called to say that both she n hanisah got 3distinctions.im like "omg im screwed la...will never get 3 As on my part".mama and siti start calling.and everytime they called, i cried coz i did not want to let them down. love to lela for supplying me tissues when in the bus =)
2.30pm: by then, my nerves were numb.maybe...just maybe blood stopped flowing thru my frozen veins and arteries.sat down in the overcrowded, stuffy hall.
2.35pm: dumb mr tong and loke yeo did NOT want to stop yakking. i'm like thinking 'shuddup u f*****s i wanna know my results already!!"
(squeezing lina's hand by this time)
2.40pm: they start flashing out names of top scorers for the cohort.so they started from cg 01/05.and since triple sci classes semua at the back, i could hardly breathe in anticipation.every bit of me was dying for my name to be up there! finally, after like 10slides, i see cg 24/05.
and wait a minute, i see FAIRUZ .......OMFG I GOT 3 DISTINCTIONS?!?!
i screamed and started crying like crazy while hugging lina. i could not stop crying for the life of me.so more tissues were passed down to me.i was in a state of surreality.somewhere in the midst of all those tears, i could hear lina saying "ur gg to apply to medicine. ur gg to become a doctor,u have to..."

after all i had sacrificed last year, it finally paid off!
im gg to be awarded on college day this year.mama will be invited.she's gg to be so proud of me.
apparently siti cried with joy when i told her my results.
then i called ama piah in jeddah and told her and she too cried!(cringes when i think of how looong i called her using my hp! confirm my bill this month naikk!)
then amal called and ama shifa and the whole world who knows me called/smsed.

poor mama, she could not concentrate at work and kept calling me prior to results.siti sampai sakit perut coz she was so scared for me!
ama nina gave a huge sigh of relief.
so yes, my entire family knew my results within 30mins of me getting it. be it the brunei ones or the ones in saudi! hahaha!

celebrated with the lovelies at swensens. i ordered fish n chips and ate wholeheartedly after having lost my appetite for a good 24hrs!
then after chit-chatting for some time, we decided to head home.
its been an emotionally gruelling day.
im tired already.
but today goes down in history as the day fai got 3 As!!!
insyaallah i get medicine.
hanisah, tell ur mum indeed Allah loves me.
and the tudung stays!

2007-03-01T03:58:00.000-08:00

hanisah is fated to be with her beloved monyet.
there cudn't be a more faithful lover around than she is.
evidence 1: she taught pri sch kids how to play monkey while in heels.
evidence 2: she read out a story about a monkey named coco to the kids while in class.

while teachers are responsible for moulding the future of our nation( spoofed from the incessant moe promotion), hanisah is responsible for spreading the love for monkeys.

HOHOHO!
one joyful news amidst all this anxiety and nervousness.
aysha and me got the hospital attachment from 2-6th april at SGH! yayyyy!
the last time i went for hospital attachment at alexandra, i was attached to the radiology dept; very boring!
this time i get the action-packed A&E dept.wheeee!!

im scared to death for tmr.
i mean it!
tmr decides my life practically!!! mama was giving me this pep talk about how she knows i've tried my very best and how i should be open to alternatives should tmr not go so well.
im thinking of accountancy, since its a real money-maker....but i've been wanting yllsom for like one thousand million years, and for that longing to end abruptly tmr iwll be the worse disappointment i've ever gotta deal with!* tink happy thought fai, happy happy thoughts! be OPTIMISTIC*
but i also believe in being realistic, and reality ain't that pretty.
i shud just tell siti to get me married off la if results suck tmr.
i will learn to masak. and be a home-maker!!
OH GOD FORBID NOOOOO!!!

i will not settle down so soon.neither will i waste my youth being tied down to someone forever.
i shall learn to be receptive to other prospective career-options out there.yes.

why must tmr come sooo soon??!?
i'll never be prepared for my results.
i dun want them back.really, i dun mind moe nt giving them back!they can have my results. ikhlas i donate that to them!
grrr.....

im mentally begining to countdown to 2.30pm tmr.
im not anticipating it.
i doubt if i'll get sleep at all tonight.
even if i do, i'd be tormented by horrific images of yucky grades for all my subjects.
tmr i wanna be an antisocial.unless of course i'm pleasantly surprised.
im a wreck now.like im not myself.
on the surface, i might look eerily confident.
but im NOT!
im a jumbled mess;a turmoil of the darkest most awfully disturbing emotions coursing through my veins....
i'm unprepared for this.im not mature enough for this.
i dun want tmr to come!!maybe this is all a super bad dream, and i'll wake up from it and know i was just dreaming.that this isn't real! i need comforting.and at the moment, alot of mental support!

2007-02-27T18:30:00.000-08:00

i discovered that there are interesting people online at 10am.haha.

it is now wednesday.
10.30am.
and i just woke up! when i'm due at work like 2hours ago!aaaahhhhh!!!!

well, waking up at 4am is kinda tking its toll on me.
crashed into bed mighty early yesterday(9-ish) andden i forgot to put my hp on silent.
so i was awakened several times by the smses received.grrr.....

now im really taking my time to siap and go work. (10.34am)
like im chatting to eliza and fadz instead of rushing like a lunatic....

im wondering how im gg to buka puasa later when im gg to the syarahan which ends exactly at magrib!?!
i hope ama nina won't require my company if she decides to go for th foot reflexology thingy later.
am so shaggedd alreadyyyy.

oh and now, im told that its onl me n ex-stalker-boy who is gg to be transferred to frontline doing e-filing(wtv the hell THAT is) .the other 2 guys, both of whom are one thousand million times funnier and funner to be around are staying...since they're gg to quit soon and go ns!
why am i always stuck with the 'rejects'!?!?!
weird freaky ones who get along better with the old aunties in my department than guys of his own age?!?!

explain to me NOW!

maybe its time i go and get ready for work.bleahh
hanisah, aysha and as of tmr, vib! bestfriend land returns tmr!! =)
for today, im flying solo....

2007-02-27T05:19:00.000-08:00

friday.
the day of recknoning.
its in less than 2days now.
thats just not making things better.

2007-02-26T03:33:00.000-08:00

i am anything but ok at this exact moment.
the announcement regarding the release of the a levels result this friday has left me in an utter mess inside.
me,hanisah & aysha completely lost our appetites for lunch today;but instead,we indulged in a single scoop of ben & jerry's new york chocolate fudge ice cream!
i am SO going out with wara tmr for pool.
i need to channel my energy and frustration into something aggressive;to get my mind off friday.

friday is like THE ultimate doomsday for 50% of singapore's 18-yr-olds.
none of us are confident of getting wow results.
everyone is worried.
everyone knows everyone else is worried.
and I for one am going to step up my alim-ness by another notch!
hanisah & me already planned how we're gg to spend thursday night; comforting each other on the phone the whole night since we already know we can't get sleep!
its traumatizing! i don't want to know how badly i did!

i shall wear tudung back to school.yes.
i can't focus at work.
i've started having periods of silence, whereby im lost in thought and don't participate in conversations.
this is shit.

my day got shittier when that ketiak-basah-woman 'fired' aysha n hanisah today.grrr...am soo gg to get them their jobs back! i need my friends there wimme!

bought 2 craze-hotties from 7-11. nothing seems to distract me from thinking abt friday.
and how i know i majorly screwed everything up!

i wish i was back in pri sch. days of utmost relaxation.
not having to worry bout paying for ur own hp bill.
not having to decide what to do with ur life.
not having a care about stature.

i need a time machine.=(

2007-02-25T03:41:00.000-08:00

pics taken at siti's maulud on saturday.

feigning a shocked look.
ala manis.
aminah(my LOVE coz she took these pics for me!)

muammar & me. he's such an abang2 now!

i LOVE my brown eyes!

its black n white.

THIS is the what aysha prolly meant by arabian princess. =)

tudung n such

2007-02-24T07:30:00.000-08:00

fun lunches.
fun outings with the besties.
tho they say i have too huge an appetite...*mumbles*

so yesterday we visited (gasp) geylang to get me a nice plain tudung for the maulud today at siti's.
and hanisah video-ed me trying on the tudung in the shop.it was quite a fiasco mind you. i hope its not youtube's most watched video by now!grr....
anyhoos....today went pretty smoothly,albeit having merely 6h of sleep! thanks to late night chit-chatting with siti.and her screaming at me to wake up at insane 9am!!

after unanimous consensus from the vast majority i polled today, every single person said i look gorgeous in tudung!my own aunts couldn't recognise me at first glance coz i apparently look oh-so-different.
someone actually asked if im from saudi! hahaha....that lawa meh i in tudung?

funny thing is, i like looking at myself more in the mirror when clad in the black tudung!
amal almost proposed to me today coz she said i looked that irresistible.
and my uncle said i looked highly attractive to the opposite sex.thanks ahh.....
like right now, im typing this entry from aunty fau's house and i still refuse to take off the blasted tudung.
even attended the birthday party for yassier in the tudung today. abeh i got a 2 yr old admirer, who kept smiling shyly at me! cute little boy ah...or maybe he smiled coz he thought i resembled his mum...?*shrugs*

i don't wanna wear the tudung for all the wrong reasons.like " i look good in it";is not the proper basis.though it is a beginning!(aysha and hanisah here is the cue to say 'dunia nak kiamat')

and to honour hanisah even further, i still have got one thousand million things i wanna do that will look odd if i decide to don the all holy tudung.
for starters, i'd look totally out of place at the pool hall. and mind you, pooling is my favourite past-time! i find bowling for the weaklings....like an alternative to pool!just that its a lamer alternative..?
and what about all those new t-shirts i've been buying recently.
its like hundreds of dollars worth of clothes gg down the drain.
and i'll need a COMPLETELY new wardrobe! we're talkign about the hugest investment of my life here! one that would prolly require 3months salary on my part.

and the biggest question is, m i really sure im ready to be that responsible in life?
coz if i wear it, i haf2 act the part as well. i mean, i wanna do the whole tudung thing properly if i really decide to wear it.
this is the epitome of a confused soul.
help.

ps: aminah i will love u forever if u cepat2 upload the pics! yeah, the ones of me in tudung! =)

2007-02-20T06:16:00.000-08:00

so today i did nothing radical to my hair,albeit fussing about it all night yesterday!
i had a last minute change of heart about highlighting the hair as well....since i'd like to maintain my hair colour the way it is now.

no offence to hair-highlighting-fanatics out there, but highlights really do cheapen ur overall image.
its always been an opinion i've had buried deep within *shrugs*
if i ever do highlight my hair, u will find that this entry shall be deleted!

i did however straightened the fringe a teeny weeny bit;a milder form of rebonding called 'relaxing'...which looks natural enough on me!

did some shopping as well with aminah. i shall not disclose the location however, for it may tarnish the polished image i possess.hahahaha!!

siti came back from bangkok today!
ooh....we watched dreamgirls over at aunty fau's place.
i don't really like jennifer hudson for some unknown reason...maybe twas the character she portrayed....
OH! i swear the aunt has got an awesome collection of dvds; the latest ones!
she's got babel, the queen, the last king of scotland, material girls,miami vice,etc. (shuddup i know miami vice isn't new!)

for the record, if there is any known way to mankind to kill one's laptop/wireless connection, please let me know.
i'm SICK AND TIRED of my fucked up computers' antics.

2007-02-18T07:43:00.000-08:00

mama is hilarious at times.
she's like this big-time movie critic who can't seem to stop criticizing!
even when a particular movie scene seems perfectly normal to me.
*shrugs*

inferiority complex on an all-time high once again tonight.
can i just stop being surrounded by beautiful ppl? grr.....
maYbe i need someone to tell me im pretty 24/7 to keep my spirits high.
a lying mirror on the wall would do.hah!

even my fav toffifee isn't cheering me up.
shucks.

so there's been alot of talk bout results coming out this coming friday,or the week after next.
screw it laa..just give them back. my hopes of getting yylsom have been dashed from the moment i took the gp paper. and it plunged further upon sitting for that fucked up beyond belief physics paper...
in short, i've got no expectations this time round.
my efforts last year would have been for naught i believe....
i even had a horrible dream a couple of nights ago; of me holding a result slip full of horrible grades.

i'm far from anticipating result-day, but i just wanna get it over an done with!
i don't particularly fancy being kept in suspense.uncertainty.

aysha can we go bellydance soon?
i need a new hobby besides sleeping and shopping.

2007-02-17T05:48:00.000-08:00

sya and me. at some toilet at marina square.

and cheers to 7 long years as besties.love ya angel!

ooh....btw i am in LOVE with huge mirrors!! they're damn accomodating to vanity!

and yes, i'm all about food! i live to eat!

2007-02-17T00:13:00.000-08:00

valentines day with the besties was great!! .insert hugs.
ate at simpang bedok for the first time in my life.ya ok laugh at me....
that very same day i lost ALL trust in hanisah's food recommendations.
she tricked me into eating roti john, which was positively bathed in blood-red chilli sauce.
u horrid being! grr.....

then consecutive dinners with other friends started.
thursday night with sya was fantastic! highlight of the night was rotting in the most comfortable sofa which overlooked the dining area of swisshotel....at a little tiny cafe at raffles city.
it was nice to finally catch up with her,after like a million years!
(oh and sya, i've got my eyes on them! haha!)

while we were at kinokuniya, lina called and invited me for some party going on at zouk!
that lucky thing got 2 passes to some exclusive event on friday night....but alas,my nightly outings did not sit too well with the mother. and hence, as insane as this seems, i had to turn her down!! arghhh!
free passes lehh......oh wells.
weirdly, the sound of clubbing does not seem to perk me up as much as before.
maybe i'm really turning into a boring soul.with a boring job.OH MY GODDD!!!

yesterday, met up with dilz after work.first, we walked around taka and then explored paragon! then i decided to pamper myself with some marks and spencer chocolate!ahah yepp i bought 2 bars of the bubbly milk chocolate, which to me tastes simply divine! it took a.l.o.t of effort to save the last bar to fill up my drawer at work.(=

rotted at starbuks at the basement of paragon till about 9pm.
once again, sofa seats are just sooo irresistible!
and the fact that they overlook the chocolatier does not hurt either!heh...

reached home around 10-ish, and i was more than ready to crash into bed!
3 consecutively fulfilling albeit tiring nights out with my girlies have been fun!!
and now that im hearing the itenary my mum conveniently came up with for this long holiday, im wishing to god that im back at work.

Ohhh i suddenly had a flashback!
of that momentuous mrt ride i had yesterday morning.
was late for work...yea u know that feeling u get when ur late and feeling tired and lazy and just craving for a nice soft pillow.
anyhoos....my spirits were lifted by this incredible hot hunk!
he was all dressed in a black armani business suit and was sitting across me....with defined features and he was tall to boot! i LIKE!
and the fact that he looked back did NOT hurt either!hehehe.....
thats what i call a fine creation of mother nature.....she spent so much time on him...and he looked oh-so-fine!
he stopped at the same station-novena.
and im beginning to think that if i get to see him every morning, i dun mind being late for work daily!!!hahaha!
and so, to sum it all up...friday was.....lovely!

2007-02-09T20:23:00.000-08:00

i can't seem to get bedy doub by elissa out of my head!
sumpah infectious!
i think her catchy-nak-mampos songs are compelling me to buy her cd so i can play it at work....since its oh-so-boring.
im getting a little sick of repeating the songs in my hp....and there's a good 100+ in there mind you.

i've got a busy day ahead.
first,i've gotta teach tuition.
then get dressed for dinner at marina square with the jc classmates.
oh waiiit! b4 dinner, im supposed to go play pool with the cooler few of them...

and today of ALL days, i've got this strong urge to straighten my hair before heading out.
put that straightener i've got to good use.
oh and im gg to straighten my fringe.like permanently.for real.
i've made up my mind.
and i might get some highlights...just maybe.maybe next month....

after dinner at pizza hut, i've gotta rush over to the royal plaza hotel since puteri invited us over.
and since i've avoided gg there the whole of last year by using the "i'm busy studying" excuse....im nt left with much of a choice.
amal made it pretty clear that she'll bury me alive without remorse if i fail to turn up and rescue her from boredom tonight....haha!
all we do there is greet the royal entourage and put up fake smiles and act like wallflowers. amidst being treated like royalty; we get served nice food and basically rub shoulders with the exclusively rich and unfamous.

speaking of royal treatment, i distinctly recall the night she decided to treat us all to a midnight movie.
it was my most eventful trip to cineleisure!
first, we were guided to the hotel basement where several rented mercs were waiting for us.
the first batch of security guards deposited us at the cars and another batch greeted us at the carpark of cineleisure. they said sth like " good evening.welcome to orchard cineleisure mdm"
i almost choked on my own saliva.the incredulity! i've been gg to watch movies there so often and i've nvr been given such treatment.
therein lies the difference if u're actually of royal lineage.

then the security guards guided us to the lift, and inside it were two other security folk waiting to bring us upstairs.
and then, at the box-office itself, another change of security followed by bows and looks of awe by commoners.haha!
once we were shown to our seats, they asked us what flavour of popcorn we preferred....and then pooof!! almost instantly, we were each handed a large popcorn and coke. the snacks were nth special la.....but pure royal treatment is what got me raving here!

despite all that, i think life that revolves around extra tight security is beyond me.
i can't live with such things. i enjoy being free.common.

and so tonight, i've gotta look all pretty and basically force my eyes to remain open till about 3-4am. thats normally the time we leave the hotel room....ok not room la.then whole entire floor belongs to them. its the bigger version of a presedential suite. something like a home away from home;with gold dusted carpets and swarovski chandeliers, and toilets bigger than my room.....
the palace away from palace indeed.

2007-02-08T05:02:00.001-08:00

i started distancing myself from the source of all irritation this week.
i hope he gets the message that i DO NOT want him tagging along everywhere i go.
i need privacy...my own personal space
ur presence is suffocating u idiot!
siti even suggested i put a random ring on my finger and say that i'm already engaged to stop his fascination with me.now that was fucking hilarious!!
its to the point whereby i can't even make my own tea in the pantry alone.
yea he even tags along when i need to pee.but obviously he uses the gents.
RARHHHH!!! LEAVE ME ALONE U FREAK!!!!

i think the loon still doesn't understand that i dun want him within 10yards of myself!
he stills comes up to me every lunchtime and before we leave,in hopes that i'd relent and go eat/home with him.
please eh.
luckily for me, aysha and hanisah just got called up....so they'll be working with me at iras starting monday!
the JOYYYYY!!!
I HAVE MY BESTIES WORKING WITH ME LIKE HOW COOL IS THAT OMG IM SO HAPPY WARA AKA AH-PORN U BETTER JOIN US FOR LUNCH EVERYDAY SINCE UR SO CLOSE BY AND IM TOTALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO MONDAY COZ ITS GOING TO BE SO FUCKING FUN!!=)

xinyi we shall have dinner when im richer k. like next week (=
sya we meet up for coffee next friday ya!!

i think im looing forward to next week.
so many great days ahead.
like v-day.
but im single.
hah...i dun care!
its the day to celebrate LOVE.
i dun need a guy to have my share of fun on that day...or any other day.
the opposite sex usually equates to misery and well...heartbreaks.
i'll have none of those thank you very much.
i like being me.
single.
carefree.
hot.
delirium.com? u got it!

hurt

2007-02-03T07:27:00.000-08:00

im in an emo mood tonight.
i loove the lyrics to this utterly timeless masterpiece sung by rick price.

She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up 'til I close my eyes
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know
And though she's so far away
It just keeps gettin' stronger, every day
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on
So tell me where do I start'
Cause it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let her go

CHORUS
Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows
My friends keep tellin' me
That if you really love her
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in kind
I'll know she's mine
So tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let her go

CHORUS
Why I live in despair
'Cause wide awake or dreaming
I know she's never there
And all the time I act so brave
I'm shaking inside
Why does it hurt me so
Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows

And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows
Heaven knows
Heaven knows

and the silly romantic notions continue....
thats prolly coz im hurt.
or at least i think i am.....im never sure of my feelings *frowns*

2007-02-02T06:48:00.000-08:00

i have a screwed up digestive system.i swear.
i gain weight on my fucking cheeks!making me look as CHUBBY as ever! and it fucking sucks.
telltale signs of an emerging 'prosperous-looking' tummy is not making me very happy either.
i need to discipline myself and get some exercise done.
i cannot stay home or lie in front of the tv during my spare time.
i've gotta keep active and fit.
im gg to the gym once a week.or run aroujnd the reservoir.
yes i shall prove wara wrong!(=

dinner at arab street tonight was nice.
caught up with hanisah & wara....had murtabak for dinner at zam-zam(yea we're budget ppl).
then had piping hot teh tarik at some 'bai' coffeeshop.

oh and thanks to hanisah's cousin, we got to enter samar and watch the live arabic show gg on.
nice atmosphere....but apparently food there sucks....

met aneesa in the bus on the way home.
basically, a rather fullfilling day *beams*

2007-02-01T05:11:00.000-08:00

been working at IRAS for over a week now.
work is starting to get a wee bit mundane.
like the novelty is wearing off....
i process the same stuff almost daily,with the exception of a few unique cases that spices up my routined job.
every morning,i make myself a piping hot cup of tea at the pantry.
then i proceed back to my desk.
by then,my computer would have been logged onto the system.
next,i take a stack of giro forms to process(they come in bundles of 60 or more)
today i was given the more complicated stack,involving international banks.a rather refreshing change la from doing posb every day.
the new temp guys got that!hahaha!
after that, i process stuff online and rush back and forth from my desk to the printer.
i hate looking for my printed letter amidst hundreds of other letters.its like the whole office shares one printer or sth...grr....
12.30-1.30pm: lunch.this is also when i go shopping since novena sq n velocity is rather conveniently located right beside my building.the constant presence of shops is NOT helping me curb my incessant expenses.evil.

ohoh!! today i bought the limited edition mtv-body shop rougeberry perfume!it smells really sweet...and its only $9.90!i just had to buy it!!(=

2007-01-30T03:07:00.000-08:00

and so i was hospitalized for the first time in my life,at freaking 5am last sunday.
im gg to sue that fucker who can't practice basic hygiene and made me eat his germ-infested mee hoon!
couldn't stop gg to the toilet from friday night.thats 2 days of utter misery.and bouts of nausea and vomitting...etc.

even during my darkest hours, my besties made the pain so much more bearable.
i know i can always count on them to be there for me when im down.
there couldn't be a stronger reason for me to love them till death!

fai HEARTS you all!!

2007-01-28T06:59:00.000-08:00

im so in love with this song by cassie:long way to go!

I love it when try to get intimate
Even though they know I really ain't into it
(You're not into it?)
I'm not into it
I already know the game
and I've been through it

See I buy my own bags, my boots, my jeans
Wear La Rok with my Rebel Yell underneath
You wanna step to me?
Said you got a long way 2 go
(Rock wit me now)
You claim that you're so hot
and you say you got skills in the bedroom
You try to flirt when you're so not
Had a chance you still never come through
You say you wanna come see me
Cuz you know your girlfriend wanna be me (uh)
I'ma tell you why you can't
Said you got a long way 2 go
Say you wanna love me?
[Chorus]
Wanna love me?
Wanna touch me?
Think twice cuz you got a long way 2 go
Don't know how to act
You betta fall back
It's like that cuz you got a long way 2 go
It's not that deep
Take it easy
You wanna please me?
Got a long way 2 go
I'ma bad girl
You wanna get close?
Ease up cuz you got a long way
[Verse 2]
I love it when they try to get scandalous
Even though they know they really can't handle it
(They can't handle it?)
They can't handle it
Try and take me out to dinner I cancel it
If you really wanna know me first of all
You should never try to get too personal
Cuz I meant it when I said
That you got a long way to go

You claim that you're so hot
and you say you got skills in the bedroom
You try to flirt when you're so not
Had a chance you still never come through
You say you wanna come see me
Cuz you know your girlfriend wanna be me (uh)
I'ma tell you why you can't
Said you gotta long way 2 go
Say you wanna love me?
[Chorus]
Wanna love me?
Wanna touch me?
Think twice cuz you got a long way 2 go
Don't know how to act
You betta fall back
It's like that cuz you got a long way 2 go
It's not that deep
Take it easy
You wanna please me?
Got a long way 2 go
I'ma bad girl
You wanna get close?
Ease up cuz you got a long way-
[Hook]
You claim that you're so hot
and you say you got skills in the bedroom
You try to flirt when you're so not
Had a chance you still never come through
You say you wanna come see me
Cuz you know your girlfriend wanna be me (uh, yeah)
Said you got a long way to go
Say you wanna love me
[Chorus x2]
Wanna love me?
Wanna touch me?
Think twice cuz you got a long way 2 go
Don't know how to act
You betta fall back
It's like that cuz you got a long way 2 go
It's not that deep
Take it easy
You wanna please me?
Got a long way 2 go
I'ma bad girl
You wanna get close?
Ease up cuz you got a long way 2 go
(Rock wit me now)
(got a long way 2 go)
(betta fall back)
(said you got a long way 2 go)

nauseating morning

2007-01-26T20:46:00.000-08:00

i hate nausea.it sucks.like it reaaaally sucks.big time.

woke up to horrible beyond belief tummy pangs which lasted for 2h.
then it lead to nauseating nausea and since i absolutely abhorr vomitting,that was quite an ordeal for me!shan't go further into details and relive those torturous 2hours.
ended up sleeping in the midst of my misery and started dreaming....

lets just say my dream was the ultimate medicine to the puking-sensations i had!
aha.....i likeeeeeeee!!*beams*
obviously hanisah just HAD to wake me up in the middle of some fantastically romantic part of my dream....to complain about me pangseh-ing her 2dy.

why do i always tend to remember you despite meeting so many others.....
its unfathomable!
i get this vibe that i'm never gg to be able to forget you entirely.
shucks.

2007-01-23T02:28:00.000-08:00

i felt soo horrible yesterday.
i just had to quit.
im gg to miss everyone at ipacc--even annoying beings.
eunice--ur the best first time colleague ever!!=)

anyhoos...started at iras today.
a good 40min journey from home.not bad laa....

im sooooo lucky i didn't get those 3 other supremely nerdy/geeky creations of mother nature in my department. like i know i can't even be bribed into making friends with them.seriously.

lucky me....got a guy colleague who's fun to talk to.so we crapped together for most of today...ooh! did i mention i get my own fucking desk thank you very much! and a computer and all...and drawers...and one of those comfy rolling chairs!! *beams*

ama nina belanja-ed me lunch today at her canteen. so i kinda ps alan.yeah...that the colleague's name.he had to have lunch with his aunt instead.tmr, we lunch together and crap even more! ahaha!

got my own temp pass coz they've got gantries at every possible entrance/exit.its a wonder i dun haf to tap my pass just to enter the toilet!

im gg to stock my drawer with loads of yummy foodstuffs! eggciting!!(spelling courtesy of hanisah)

im gg to decorate my desk and make it look all pink--like in legally blonde! maybe a cutesy pink mirror(an absolute must!), a pair of pink headphones since we're allowed to listen to music and get myself a furry pink pen! ahhh...ultimate bimbotism!=)

now i've gotta go tutor the boy.
this is the part where i sulk.things i do for money.*sighs*

2007-01-15T06:35:00.000-08:00

shit im scared out of my wits.
for no apparent reason tonight, my nose started bleeding abit.
im fucking scared.

i love that song from the movie fanaa.
its sooo catchy and addictive! especially the part where he tries to woo her....ala cute!

i miss too many people all at the same time!
ladies and that prince of mine, where are u ppl?!?

and can mother nature stop being bitchy?rainrainrain......
its so cold my fingernails turn almost purple in the office ,despite the ac being switched to a temp of 25degrees celsius!
i would've migrated to antartica had i fancy the cold weather u know!im in the tropics for a bloody reason--so bless me with some sunshine here!

2007-01-14T17:37:00.000-08:00

its funny how u can confuse me so.yes you.
laughter and joy.and anger flashes.you give it all to me.
but i will never allow anyone such control over myself.
its dangerous.
i love being loved.but i'm afraid to return love(to selected individuals).
i cannot afford to be hurt.

i think work sucks. its draining all my energy and relegated me to sleeping at the loserish hour of 8pm almost daily.
so i gotta seal the tuition deal.
great.lesser time for myself.thats all i need on top of my hectic working life.

i can't understand why i'm working myself so ruthlessly just to get money.
granted i'm a huge spender.but i also know my own spending limits....with more money in hand,it'd mean huger expenses....a vicious cycle indeed!

i hope to get that hospital attachment after 5th feb. After what hanisah said about docs being underpaid for the amount of effort they put in and the heartless slicing up of human flesh she witnessed in the operation theatre...i'm beginning to rethink my decision to take up medicine.
those who know me know i can't even bear to see a drop of blood;i positively cringe at the slightest sight of a minor cut/burn. how i plan to overcome this innate phobia is beyond me!

if i were to be frankly honest here, i plan to take up the highest paying job available.
lets just say i've had enough of the daydreaming crap. i want to be able to actually own them things i set my sight on.i want to be able to go shopping without actually looking at the price tag.not giving a rats' ass about the bill. now wouldn't that be an enriching shopping trip! thats retail therapy in its truest meaning!!

maybe i should be an accountant instead.heard they earn like big bucks! but its stressful and boring. could i live with that?hmm......
i think lina is to be blamed for the sudden career-confusion.she and her psychology nonsense! grr....

pmses

2007-01-14T08:17:00.000-08:00

was randomly reading thru my old blog entries.
chanced upon sth i blogged about exactly a year ago,and i realised its weird how i still have the same desires.maybe more so now....since all i have is time and nothing else to occupy me besides my job.
well,here it goes...

"i want someone to love me for who i am.
i want someone who understands that i am temperamental at times.
i want someone to hug me when i'm down.
i want someone who will be always there for me.
i want someone with good looks and an even better heart.
i want someone with guts--preferably...
i want someone who showers me with attention.
i want someone who surprises me with cutelittlenothings.
i want someone who knows how to treat a lady right.
i want someone whom i can have lame & intellectual conversations with.
i want someone to tell me its alright to fail.
i want someone who makes me want to love him for all eternity.
i want someone who'll be the first and last guy in my life.
i want someone who basically....does not exist.
at least not to my knowledge."

2007-01-11T00:01:00.000-08:00

day1 at job was quite fun.
but im abit lazy to elaborate.maybe during the weekends i shall.
my colleague eunice is so friendly and nice! and i getta listen to music/radio while working! like how cool is that?!
apparently, the music in the background helps create a lively and spirited environment that befits the image of the advertising company.
albeit parroting the same set of greeting for every single phone call, i guess i kinda like the job. a no-brainer thingy--pick up calls,abit of filing---voila! but the 6day/wk and low pay of $800 is eating me alive!
i mean, today i had to face a tough dilemma.
yes, besides the dilemma of working alone the other day--partly brought about by an all-time high level of oestrogen coursing through my body!! hormones are such bitches--especially female ones!hrmph!!

ok so back to todays' dilemma.
i mean like duh i want a higher paying job--kelly services is maha efficient i swear! just yesterday i e-mailed them my resume, and at 10am this morning, i got a call offering me a job at standard chartered bank! and its $1400/mth babyyy!! *beams very very widely*
the catch is, its only a 1month job. then afterwards, the lady over at kellys' offered to get me another job when my term with the bank approaches an end. hey, u give a girl with a regular monthly school allowance of $120 that kinda money, and she'll go ballistic! eratically excited at the prospect of new-found richness!=)
and i got a tuition offer too. 2 guys.4subjects each. if i seal that delicious deal, i get a whopping extra $640 monthly! that'd be.....HOLYMACARONI!! $2040 next month! *imagines the gazillion shopping trips and pool outings!!*
but of course, that'd also mean that i'd be working my ass off. i am reluctant to sacrifice spending time with the besties at the expense of getting richer....but still.....thats an awful lot of money we're talking about!

i can finally get my own ipod nano.
the canon ixus digicam!
another 5 pairs of shoes.or maybe one reaaaally expensive pair from on pedder or stuart weitzman! so bloody 'atas' la designer shoes!!
maybe a top or two from zara or guess!

NO! I cannot spend too much! i have to learn to save money!thats the purpose of having a bank account! to watch it GROW! i mean the objective of getting a job (to my mum obviously) is to teach me the value of money--so that i stop spending it heedlessly! well, excuse me for being a WOMAN! no lady in her right mind would stop shopping;or say that she's sick of shopping and doesn't need perhaps another pair of shoes or earrings? If ever such a lady exists, then u can be sure that she's a 'he' masquerading as a 'she'--or in layman's term, a transsexual!

but if i quit my current clrke quay job--poor eunice has to struggle like crazy picking up the millions of phone calls! and she'd have no one to talk to. but at least, the flirt shan't flirt with me anymore. its like so 'sex and the city'-ish; boss liking the secretary (classier name for a administrator--which makes me sound oh-so-dull!)

i have 6hrs till i get up! at least i get free coffee in the morning--i've got nice bosses there!
oh wells, too bad the pay isn't as attractive tho. i mean,i'm only being human after all--i can;t resist temptation when its too good for the sane mind to resist!! =)

EMPLOYED

2007-01-09T03:03:00.000-08:00

i had by far the most INFORMAL interview today.
the manager who interviewed me bloody FLIRTED with me.(i must emphasize that i DID NOT flirt back!!)

firstly, he complimented the way i look.
secondly, he asked me on a date out for dinner tonight.
thirdly, he asked if my mum would mind me going out with him.
fourthly, he said he loved the scent of my perfume.
and lastly, when i got the job, he asked if he could get a hug.
FLIRT!!!
there were other questions he asked that were totally unrelated to the jobscope, and out of politeness and courtesy, i answered them.
like if i already had a boyfriend.
i wonder if he'd still give me the job had i said that i was attached.
oh well, i'll stick to this job for a month or so...until a higher paying job offer comes my way.

wtv it is..i got the job!!
so YAY FOR ME!

my fair lady

2007-01-01T09:16:00.000-08:00

watching my fair lady again tonight brought back alot of memories from my almost-forgotten childhood. i watched a good deal of cartoons,just like any other kid my age then would, but the difference is, i started watching epics as well at that tender age.
i remember watching cleopatra, then starring elizabeth taylor-whom i thought to be the most beautiful woman alive.i was in love with the awesome costumes and spectacular sets on screen. i was introduced to malice and hypocrisy then through ben hur. now to think of it, i may have enjoyed these movies better than those silly cartoons!
well back to tonight. i could actually remember all those songs and sang-along with them! my favourite has to be the song audrey hepburn sang 'i could've danced all night". now, as a tribute to that, here are the lyrics to one of the nicest on-screen vocals i've heard!

My head's too light to try to set it down!
Sleep! Sleep!
I couldn't sleep tonight.
Not for all the jewels in the crown!
I could have danced all night! I could have danced all night! And still have begged for more.
I could have spread my wings
And done a thousand things
I've never done before.
I'll never know
What made it so exciting;Why all at once
My heart took flight.
I only know when he Began to dance with me
I could have danced, danced, danced all night!

2006-12-21T08:42:00.000-08:00

BYE SINGAPORE.
HELLO TERENGGANU AKA THE LAND OF PENYUS!

MISS FAIRUZ

2006-12-21T06:11:00.000-08:00

MISS FAIRUZ!
thats what the kids will call me,starting from jan 2007.
yes,yours truly is now a relief teacher.aha! $65/day! YESSS!!

now if only i could secure a more permanent job as well,i'd be loaded! able to shop everyday or every weekend! things to buy in 2007:

ipod nano
canon digital ixus(the latest model then)
b-day cd(only maybe)
a curling iron
prisonbreak season1 vcd collection
a pair of earrings from metallic
a guess handbag
slacks for every possible occasion
M.A.C. compact powder
bobbi brown lip gloss

backdated

2006-12-20T19:42:00.000-08:00

i realised that i had not blogged about monday! how could i have failed to do so?*look of feigned shock*
watched eragon on monday....despite external negative influence not to do so! haha! lucky i decided to watch it,show was good! and i can bet my bottom that there'll be a part2. eragon would look much better if he were older...for now,he may be a teen heartthrob.i'm way past that era,standing at high-and-mighty 18 now.hehehe...

anyways,todays thursday.which means its less than 24hours to my terengganu trip.which also means i've gotta start packing;mama's suitcase is like totally full while mine remains empty! getting ready to go to aysha's place now....and she's gotta vacumn the house before my arrival!haha....padan muka!=)
off to pasir ris it is!

2006-12-19T19:20:00.000-08:00

i've come to the conclusion that i am totally immune to the piercing 'kkrrringgg' sound of my alarm clock.
i was supposed to get up like 2hours ago,get dressed and get my butt down to pasir ris to exchange my new black top for something else,go down to tj to get my $83 refund and then...rush off to parkway for pool with wara,and just maybe,it time permits,meet aysha n vib at bugis.
ooh...also,rush down to my grandma's place to get my passport back!she's had it all along when my entire house was in an uproar trying to locate that blasted book!

i've got a busy day ahead!!!
and i'm not done with my shopping yet! for the record,shopping this time round is for the sole purpose of accumulating more clothes appropriate for the office environment...if it were up to me, i'd be blowing the cash on earrings and shoes, and maybe a couture piece;something i've yet to own.

got a weekend job with hanis.i'm not telling where!haha! at least that guarantees my absence from home then,so goodbye to incessant nagging-sessions on sundays! i'm so brilliant at times!=)

rain RAIN

2006-12-17T05:46:00.000-08:00

today was as stormy as the weather.
sometimes i seriously wish weekends would never come.
my sunday started off with the traditional orders from the mum to get myself out of bed and give her a hand in doing the chores.i don't get the whole fuss about why i'm supposed to start learning how to cook a decent meal,yada2... heck i can't even distinguish one leafy veg from another! they're all green to me,and leafy...so why even bother torturing one's self with distinguishing the undistinguishable?!
i admit to my inherent flaw of being very very lazy when it comes to household chores.so what if i'm a girl and i'm of matrimonial age bladibla..did it ever occur to them that i may be career-minded?noooo.....of course not!
i think i'm pmsing today. i'm in absolutely no mood to talk to anybody,save for watching tv and keeping to myself. alone-time is good sometimes,getting away from the crowd for awhile....this is the hormones talking;not the usual bubbly,chirpy albeit high fai.

sometimes it seems as though i have everything,yet at times i feel like i have nothing.i believe this holiday is a great time for me to do a bit of soul-searching;ya know starting the near year afresh,leaving old memories behind and creating new ones.at times my conscience gets the better of me;other times consequences are overruled. maybe this is not how i want to live my life.i wanna try sth new,break away from the monotonous lifestyle.alas,i'm in singapore,what can i possibly try that will be refreshing? maybe get horseback riding lessons or take up spanish! once again,my prospective activities are obstructed by my lack of personal financial prosperity at this time of the year. They say its the season of giving,so why am i not receiving anything yet eh? A checque for a million dollars sounds damn good to me!

again

2006-12-16T07:37:00.000-08:00

life is becoming almost a routine for me these past 3 days. i've been a very homely girl,as compared to 2-3 weeks ago.i watch tv, eat,chat and sleep for very extended hours....and the cycle repeats itself! indeed i believe i should get down to getting a job! SERIOUSLY!
i'm leading the somewhat 'luxurious' aka lazy lifestyle.i've not put my brain into use since the a's ended...and i'm kinda wondering if it'll ever be functioning as well as it was before in the near future. my wheels are getting a wee bit rusty in my opinion.
spent the entire day at amal's place--watching more dvds!
i'm not complaining about the routined-lifestyle persay;since i believe i earned it after months of slogging hardd!!
i'm going onto jobstreet.com and find me the perfect job! yes....i shall abandon aimless chatting on msn(for the moment) and focus on the job-hunt! i shall prevail!

back again

2006-12-12T09:50:00.000-08:00

another nothing-special day.
met up with hanisah and volunteered at mendaki from 1-4pm.
nothing very eventful obviously. except that i saw a distant cousin from my paternal side.i'm just not close to my paternal side *shrugs*
later we hunted down a FANTASTIC video rental shop;vcd rentals at 80 cents! 80 freakin' cents!! lovely;i just found my new favourite shop in tampines! twas somewhere near temasek poly...
my life after today is going to pretty much suck until i get a job. im flat broke! like less than $10 kinda BROKE!so i kinda need cash urgently;still got loads of unfulfilled shopping desires..haha!

going out with my grandma tmr. she's been voicing out her disapproval at my lack of attention to my family eversince my new found freedom, and insists that i spend more time with her.so yeah...since i'm broke, i'll go along with loads of family-outings for now. its not like its a chore really,some outings can turn out quite fun! (inserts affirmative nod)

rented 10 vcds today-so thats $8 gone. putting the financial aspect aside for now, i'm happy with the collection of vcds i rented.
since i have nothing but time on my hands, i shall embark on the otherwise deplorable task of listing down each and every title i rented.

Mr. & Mrs Smith
High School Musical
The Pink Panther
A very long engagement
School of seduction
The 40-year old virgin
Uptown girls
Fantastic 4
Bruce Almighty
Pride and prejudice
Charlie & the Chocolate Factory (this was for free)

its funny how my life did not exactly turn out as i envisioned it to be immediately after a levels.
its even funnier that i would actually feel as though i miss the mugging days (this occurs very rarely!) Ok maybe i should stop my aimless ranting and get some sleep.Its 2.08am already.

2006-12-11T09:57:00.000-08:00

boat quay with the birthday boy.

2006-12-11T09:46:00.000-08:00

piccies from grad nite at fullerton 06.12.06

(from left) lina,dila,me

xinyi and me
i was SOO shocked to see her in a dress that night!haha! looking good babe!

(from left) me,evelyn,xinyi.

yes i know i'm super fair in those pictures.however, i refuse to get a tan! =)

new look

2006-12-11T09:22:00.000-08:00

i LIKE MY NEW SKIN!! *grins*
blogging has not been on my priority list for a long while now....
some things that happen just cannot be captured by mere words.

grad nite sucked thanks to fucking sc. lucky im getting a full refund! so much for PERFECT CADENCE at fullerton!
on a lighter note,the after-party at attica was FANTASTIQUE!
me,lina,mei hui and huda. grooved it ALL NIGHT!
stayed over at dilz' room at fullerton....did loads of exploring of fullerton wif my lovely partner-in-crime aka lina!hehe....

did not sleep the entire night...after attica,slacked at macs(since entry into MOS was rather ex!)
then...back to the hotel room and played cards the entire night....so i sucked at the card game that we played!(in my defense,im totally new to that game!)

anws....nth worth mentioning happened in the ensuing few days.
attended sumbody's birthday celebration at boat quay on friday night,then clubbed abit at the pump room.

saturday: followed wara to get an artificial tan.obviously anyone who has seen her pigmentation would agree with me;that girl CANNOT tan for the life of her! so it was a total waste of $23 since she did not even turn a shade darker after almost 25mins of being "baked alive".

sunday: decided to be nice and stay home for once.

monday: went with wara to register for the basic driving theory test at the comfort driving centre, which happens to be conveniently 2 stops away from my house!aha!!
so yesh....fai will be getting her license latest by june '07!
then met up with hanisah,vib and hanis and akmal at starbucks at terminal1. i swear we're such havoc-wreckers when the group of us congregate! laughed sooo much la today;partly due to reading certain smses by a person i'm well aquainted with.his english simply SUCKS! there is absolutely no kinder way to put this...so pardon my tactlessness here! i'm already being very kind trust me!

while the day went very smoothly for me...i hated what i chanced upon only moments ago.I don't understand why but it really hurts me so very badly when i saw it. i just hate the way u flaunt it;i know i've got no reason to complain since i relinquished any sort of familial ties we once had,BUT still,for fuckingly unexplainable reasons, i DO get hurt! Why is it that you are the one person capable of drawing tears from my eyes. I'm so rational in other aspects of life, but where you are concerned, i can't seem to think properly! i hate you;yet i know i can never forget you completely. i HATE HATE HATE this sooo much!

ALEVELS

2006-10-19T23:54:00.000-07:00

yea i know this is an entirely inappropriate time to be blogging, but i needed a 10min break from my killing-paced revision.
i read through some of my entries last year and decided.....I SO DON'T HAVE A FUCKING LIFE THIS YEAR!

IN 5 weeks time, im gg to be liberated from his hellish pithole and GET MY LIFE BACK ON TRACK!

oh and btw, to that special someone,i still like you.
even though i've buried myself in studies this year and ignored your existence, i have never stopped liking you.
though i must say,your "magnetic" effect on me is kinda wearing off.....
ok i did stop liking you for a few months...i had an internal love-hate thingy going on where you were concerned.besides...my priorities this year have definitely changed.
i never thought i'd say this, but i do hope that one fine day, u'll reciprocate.
by that time, i prolly won't like you anymore!hahahaha!!!

im stressed.
bye world.

ms universe 06

2006-07-23T22:06:00.000-07:00

so i spent the entire morning watching miss universe 2006. i even multi-taked in between advertisements and got breakfast prepared.
im sorry to sound like a bitch but honestly, puerto rico doesn't deserve the crown!something about her appearance just doesn't befit the prestigious title--oh! i know i know! that's coz she's UGLY!for the lack of a kinder word to describe her...lets stick to ugly for now.
hello judges!?! r u guys BLIND!?! mexico was fucking gorgeous and she didn't even make it thru the top 5 cut?!? BLINd im telling u!
lets discuss this year's top 20!
unfortunately, there's really nothing much to discuss.this year's top20 haul was -blahhh-

i've now proven my hypothesis that every alternate year, the winner will be ugly!

for eample, in 2004...australia won the crown. she was -notverypretty-
in 2005, the winner;miss canada, was simply beautiful. she deserved to win!
now...2006...once again...all hail the undeserving winner--puerto rico.
MY POINT PROVEN!

i've never failed to watch a single beauty pageant eversince i was a child and hence, i am every bit worthy to be judgemental here! hrmph!

ahoy!

2006-07-13T04:58:00.000-07:00

guess who got tickets to watch PIRATES OF TEH CARIBBEAN:DEAD MAN'S CHEST on its opening day!
ME!
muahahaha!!
guess who got a pair of free tix to watch it AGAIN in a private screening for espn staffs n celebs?
RIGHT AGAIN! its ME!

im besotted with orlando bloom! handsome bugger! get me a boyfriend as wholesome in looks as he, i promise my loyalty will NEVER waver!hehe!

there's only two words i can say for johnny depp--fucking cool!
he's the star of the show, the ultimate funny guy! i loooove jack sparrow...oops! pardon the informality, i meant CAPTAIN jack sparrow!

keira knightly is the luckiest bitch on earth! she got to smooch 2 of my favourite guys--bloom n depp!
ARGH! it wasn't like a quick peck on the cheek, twas intense! some women have all the luck!*sighs*

i so can't wait for the 3rd sequel to be released. it'll be out in 2007! dammit i ain't the world's most patient person! 2007 is a goddamn long time awayyy!!

for the record, i think the make-up unit did a spectacular job.making davy jones as ugly as he looks,almost bordering repulsive-looking, without scaring the kiddos too much!
ok....i can't stop gushing!
the movie rocks!positively! beyond a doubt!
oh...and stay behind after the shows' ended. there's a scene u won't wanna miss after the trailer! hehehe!!

i can't wait for part 3!!

utter randomness

2006-07-03T04:23:00.000-07:00

"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away"

-i love beautiful language!-

mardi gras

2006-04-13T23:38:00.000-07:00

MARDI GRAS ROCKED BIG TIME!
WE WERE ALL SO SOOO GORGEOUSSSS!!

I KNOW I WAS!
hehe...

-shortest update ever-

i was a very happy lady yesterday...so funn!!
also...i sis something extremely dumb!!
argh..it always happens when u're having too much fun...bleah...

time FLIES

2006-04-05T07:23:00.000-07:00

30weeks.
yea.
that's how long i've gotta slog hard for.
after that...anyone who approaches me wif any form of lecture notes or tutorials will be personally dealt with in the severest of manners.

im happy with my thur-sat study group.
since all of us (excluding miss wara pon-pon) gain admission into YLLSOM, its a fantastic way of motivating each other and make sure we do the right amount of appropriate revision.
consistency will pave our way to that course.
insya'allah.
*an attempt to sound alim...(= *
**cue to applaud**

ooh...lina my lovely bimbo is going to get f-a-m-o-u-s!!
this sunday at 10am, she'll be interviewed live on suria...as she's one of the top "30" finalists for anugerah skrin!!
yea..the malay search for a superhost...sth liddat.
i'll prolly need to refer to a kamus after every sentence or sth....judging from my total lack of comprehension of the malay language!

oh can it please rain tomorrow morning?!?
PE first period...and i refuse to do stupid circuit training that i know will NEVER help me in passing my standing broad jump!
the retard of a pe dept. just can't accept the fact that i can't fucking jump!!grrr....
keep making us run only....u think that will help me in the future when im in labour?
i mean torturing the guys to cover insane distances while running is fine,since they're going thru ns anyways.
but...girls...i DO NOT see any VALID reason for putting us thru' such a rigorous pe routine.

i think hanging around aysha too much has got dire consequences on my judgement pertaining physical education as a whole.
see la...u lembek tauge...influence me soo much!!

mugger me

2006-03-26T07:52:00.000-08:00

lemme re-introduce myself.
im fai.
from now, march 26 2006, till the nerve-wrecking month of november,i shall otherwise be known as a mugger.
in light of the upcoming 'A' levels, my future 'make-or-break' determining factor, i vow to screw my social life and other unnecessary social rompings.
i will endeavour to mug as much as my brain capacity allows.
i fucking want to get into YLLSOM!! (go figure...its the acronym that drives me in life right now...)
yes i know admission into that fucking prestigious course is as coveted as diamonds,maybe more so...coz its excruciatingly difficult to gain entry!at least diamonds are easily obtained when one has got the moolah...but money plays zilch role for the course in question.

can't they just bloody expand their yearly enrolment?!!especially for the next year, since there are so many dragon babies vying for a spot amidst the 230-odd student enrolment.
i want nothing more at this juncture of my life.
i want.
i want.
i want.
YLLSOM!
im already imagining my dorm.
how exciting it'll be to go shopping for decorations for my room.
its quite obvious i refuse to go home everyday from NUS.so i let mama with 2 choices; 1) get me a car so i can shuttle myself back n forth. 2) allow me to stay at the hostel.

obviously option 2 is a much better,money-saving option.so i didn't really leave her with much choice but to agree!!
HAH!! my very own dorm room.
oooh...im already imagining the moment.glorioussss...
of course my wardrobe would have to expand! i plan to own at least 100 tops before entering NUS, coz i simply refuse to be seen in the same top twice in a year! initially i wanted 365, one for each day, but aysha pointed out that i'll have alot of laundry to do then.
so yea...i'll stick with the 100 idea for now.
ooh....when this year is OVER, i'll fucking dance for joy!
and paint town red!!
yeah!!

hurt so bad

2006-03-16T09:15:00.000-08:00

i dismissed it as just another infatuation...
but then...why does it hurt so bad?
i wished i hadn't asked.
curiosity got the better of me.
when i saw -what i saw- i was stunned.
my fingers went all numb.
my blood froze.at that instant.
immediately i suspected something bad coming my way.
i asked.
u replied.
and my heart shattered.
is it my fault ?
did i give u the wrong idea?or are u simply born blind?!?
i wonder who that lucky -person- is.
could this possibly be love?
did i actually love without realising it till its too late?
regardless of whatever shortcomings, my feelings never changed.
i wish i had the courage to tell it to u.
i wish i had been more obvious about my feelings.
i know im being a tad pessimistic.
i refuse to believe otherwise.
there is no ray of hope.
don't even bother telling me otherwise.
its been a rough few days.
for the first time in my life, im not eating or sleeping properly.
there's a driving force within me that refuses to allow me to rest.
when i do rest, my mind drifts to you.
so its safest that i keep myself occupied.
there are tearing tendencies.
i don't undertsand this.
im a strong person who mantains her cool even at times of crisis.
i can't help but feel sad at what i've lost.
then again, i can't lose something i never had.
i somehow prefer living in isolation at this point of time.
i wonder how im going to manage the feat of throwing u outta my mind, when we bump into each other frequent enough.
at least i've got my priorities better sorted out after finding out.
pls god, help me get through this disappointment!
i need to get back to being me once again, cheery and all...being sad just doesn't suit my personality...
i wish him all the best with her (whoever she is...). may they be happy together.

2006-03-08T06:26:00.000-08:00

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Fairuz!
Fairuz has little need for water and is capable of going for months without drinking at all!
The fairuz-fighting market in the Philippines is huge - several thousand fairuz-fights take place there every day.
Fairuz is the only metal that is liquid at room temperature.
Fairuz can sleep with one eye open.
Americans discard enough fairuz to rebuild their entire commercial air fleet every 3 months!
Ancient Chinese artists would never paint pictures of fairuz.
Fairuz has only one weakness - the colour yellow.
Four-fifths of the surface of fairuz is covered in water.
The condom - originally made from fairuz - was invented in the early 1500s!
You should always open fairuz at least an hour before drinking her.

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Hanisah!
In a pinch, the skin from a shark can be used as hanisah.
Hanisahocracy is government by hanisah.
While sleeping, fifteen percent of men snore, and ten percent grind their hanisah.
Human beings are the only animals that copulate while facing hanisah.
Half a cup of hanisah contains only seventeen calories!
During World War II, Americans tried to train hanisah to drop bombs.
Until the 1960s, hanisah was not allowed to enter Disneyland.
Plato believed that the souls of melancholy people would be reincarnated into hanisah.
The Vikings believed that the Northern lights were caused by hanisah as she rode out to collect warriors slain in battle!
You share your birthday with hanisah!

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Aysha!
The smelly fluid secreted by skunks is colloquially known as aysha.
Aysha is the oldest playable musical instrument in the world.
The risk of being struck by aysha is one occurence every 9,300 years!
Ayshaomancy is the art of telling the future with aysha.
Human beings are the only animals that copulate while facing aysha.
Grapes explode if you put them inside aysha.
If you drop aysha from the top of the Empire State Building, she will be falling fast enough to kill before reaching the ground!
In Japan it is considered rude to talk with aysha in your mouth!
In her entire life, aysha will produce only a twelfth of a teaspoon of honey!
The word 'samba' means 'to rub aysha'!

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Vibha!
The first vibha was made in 1853, and had no pedals.
Finding vibha on Christmas morning is believed to bring good luck.
Vibha can live for up to a week without a head!
The Asteroid Belt between Mars and Jupiter is made entirely of vibha.
A chimpanzee can learn to recognize itself in a mirror, but vibha can not.
Without vibha, we would have to pollinate apple trees by hand.
Vibha can run sixty-five kilometres an hour - that's really fast.
If you drop vibha from more than three metres above ground level, she will always land feet-first.
Vibha is actually a mammal, not a fish!
Vibha has little need for water and is capable of going for months without drinking at all.

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Lina!
Some birds use lina to orientate themselves during migration.
There are roughly 10,000 man-made objects the size of lina orbiting the Earth.
Every day in the UK, four people die putting lina on.
Lina can't sweat!
A cluster of bananas is called a hand and consists of 10 to 20 bananas, which are individually known as lina!
Grapes explode if you put them inside lina!
Moles are able to tunnel through 300 feet of lina in a day!
Only one child in twenty will be born on the day predicted by lina.
Lina is the world's smallest mammal.
Contrary to popular belief, lina is not successful at sobering up a drunk person, and in many cases she may actually increase the adverse effects

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Wara!
Wara is the sacred animal of Thailand.
Edinburgh imports three thousand kilograms of wara every year.
Wara can't drink - she absorbs water from her surroundings by osmosis.
The moon is 400 times closer to the Earth than wara, and 400 times smaller.
Women shoplift four times more frequently than wara!
Wara is the world's tallest woman.
Louisa May Alcott, author of 'Little Wara', hated wara and only wrote the book at her publisher's request.
A waraometer is used to measure wara.
All of the roles in Shakespeare's plays - including the female roles - were originally played by wara!
Michelangelo finished his great statue of wara in 1504, after eighteen months work.

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Sya!
It's bad luck for a flag to touch sya!
Sya was declared extinct in 1902.
It's bad luck to put sya on a bed.
Japan provides over thirty percent of the world's sya supply.
Czar Paul I banished sya to Siberia for marching out of step.
The Eskimos have over fifty words for sya.
The deepest part of sya is over 35,000 feet deep.
If you drop sya from more than three metres above ground level, she will always land feet-first.
Sya will give a higher yield if milked when listening to music.
If a snake is born with two heads, the heads will fight over who gets sya.

this website is rocking amazing!
check it out and have a ball of a time laffing ur asses off!
http://thesurrealist.co.uk/trivia.pl

pool champ!

2006-03-03T01:56:00.000-08:00

yes i know its been a mega looong time since ive updated this lifeless blog!
anws...IM A POOL PRO NOW!!
*grins*
im so busy lately.year 2 aint a joke.
so i've quitted hockey to make more time for myself.
i (dun mind the language) fucking want to get at least 3As for A levels.
i want medicine...so BADLY!
i'll overcome my fear of having to deal with blood and studying the human skeleton....just lemme into the goddamn course!
so next weekend, me n aysha have a date! gonna check out the courses (like duh only med!) at the NUS open house.

famous amos chocolate chip and macadamia cookies are the absolute love!! *crunchcrunch*
=)
a lovely day it has been!
esp when im gg to be on talking terms once again with the 'flying dutchman'!
and now...kfc has left.i feel somehow indebted to him....sheesh im too nice! how the heck should i put it nicely that i've never been interested? that i was only...well fooling around.
ok.i've gotta make it stop.now.

top choice

2006-02-22T06:04:00.000-08:00

just watched top 10 romantic travel destinations!
here are my favourites in random order:
1) seychelles islands
2)florence
3)seville--spain
4)rome
5)paris
6)Sicily--italy
7)venice

the first guy who proposes to me at any one of the listed cities will have the honour of marrying me!those places are like soooo gorgeous! like the travel journalist said, the ambiance of these cities just sets you in the mood for love and romance.
i don't care i want such a proposal!!!

**fai dreams on**

premature

2006-02-07T03:39:00.000-08:00

in light of the upcoming valentines day (exactly a week away!), i have decided to spare abit of time indulging myself in looking up lovey-dovey stuffs.
ok..more like sweeet love quotes.
and also how to say 'i love you' in several catchy languages!
here goes :
In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything, and two minus one equals nothing. ~ Mignon McLaughlin

Love is the history of a woman's life; it is an episode in man's.~ Germaine De Stael

Love is a thing, well, its kind of like quicksand: The more you are in it, the deeper you sink. And when it hits you, you've just got to fall.

Romance has been elegantly defined as the offspring of fiction and love. ~ Benjamin Disraeli

Nobody will ever win the battle of the sexes. There’s too much fraternizing with the enemy. ~ Henry Kissinger

The heart has reasons that reason does not understand. ~ Jacques Benigne Bossuel

It is best to love wisely, no doubt; but to love foolishly is better than not to be able to love at all. ~ William Thackeray

We find rest in those we love, and we provide a resting place in ourselves for those who love us. ~ Saint Bernard of Clairvaux

You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly. ~ Sam Keen

What the heart has once owned and had, it shall never lose. ~ Henry Ward Beecher

Love doesn't make the world go 'round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile. ~ Franklin P. Jones

It is impossible to repent of love. The sin of love does not exist."~ Muriel Spark

Cooking is like love. It should be entered into with abandon or not at all."~ Harriet Van Horne"

Many a man has fallen in love with a girl in a light so dim he would not have chosen a suit by it."~ Maurice Chevalier

I LOVE YOU

Arabic - Ana behibak (to male)
Elvish - Amin mela lle
Hindi - Hum Tumhe Pyar Karte hae
Italian - Ti amo
Lebanese - Bahibak
Moroccan - Ana moajaba bik
Portuguese - Eu te amoRomanian - Te iubesc
Spanish - Te quiero / Te amo
Thai - Chan rak khun (to male)
Turkish - Seni Seviyorum
Latin - Te amo

notice the absence of 'i love u' in malay.thats coz malay simply fails to fascinate me in every aspect!haha... =)

life is good

2006-02-02T05:21:00.000-08:00

LIFE IS GOOD

oh why??

2006-01-23T06:32:00.000-08:00

january 2006 has gotta be the month with bad feng shui or something.
couples....i don't mean like just any ordinary couple, but very sweeet couples around me are breaking off their relationships.
to date, i know of 3 such cases, within 2 days.

it saddens me to see the end of relationships.i mean i know they don't last forever, but why couldn't it last a wee bit longer?
like till 14 feb so that each will have the special other to celebrate with.
then go ahead, dump the guy/girl the next day.at least u won't be alone on v-day.

yea sometimes i wished i had a significant other to commemorate the day with, but really i've long ago come to the conclusion that teenage relationships are very temporary.

i hate it how nothing in life seems to last at all.

so today lina and me did some heavy reflection and its probably the first few rare occasions we spent our breaktime tearing away about all the 'bad feng shui' in our midst.

i want someone to love me for who i am.
i want someone who understands that i am temperamental at times.
i want someone to hug me when i'm down.
i want someone who will be always there for me.
i want someone with good looks and an even better heart.
i want someone with guts--preferably...
i want someone who showers me with attention.
i want someone who surprises me with cutelittlenothings.
i want someone who knows how to treat a lady right.
i want someone whom i can have lame & intellectual conversations with.
i want someone to tell me its alright to fail.
i want someone who makes me want to love him for all eternity.
i want someone who'll be the first and last guy in my life.
i want someone who basically....does not exist.

at least not to my knowledge.

this is total diversion but my mum is hogging the remote control so i am unable to watch the victoria's secret fashion show (grrr....) and lina and i very probably can win the championships for the longest conversation had over the telephone.

copyrighted

2006-01-22T03:30:00.000-08:00

i chanced upon some hilarious quotes while reading vibha's blog!
so since she copied it from somewhere else, i find it perfectly legal and honourable for me to do the same on my blog (=
i term this spreading the joy! haha...enjoy ppl!!

- He has a chip on his shoulder. It's a splinter from the wood above it.
- He even wrinkles his brow while reading the comics.
- She's like yesterday's coffee-a little weak in the bean.
- If ignorance is really a bliss, he's the world's happiest guy.
- He's hard at work on an invention- colour radio-
They've named a Chinese restaurant after him- Low. I. Queue.
- He had to see his doctor in the morning for a blood test, so he stayed up all night studying for it.
- She can't find a thing to buy in antique shops. She claims they're not making antiques nowadays nowadays like they used to.
- It would take a surgical operation to get an idea into his head.
- His doctor tells him that exercise will kill germs. He says it's silly-how can you get germs to exercise?
- She keeps her baby in a high crib on an uncarpeted floor, so she can hear him if he falls out.
- They put better heads than his on umbrellas.
- An intelligent thought dies quickly in his head- it can't stand solitary confinement.
- He has a one-track mind, and the traffic on it is very light.
- If it wasn't for the changes in weather, she'd never be able to start a conversation.
- He should be careful not to let his mind wander. It's too weak to be allowed out alone.
- Everything you say to her goes in one ear and out the other. There's nothing to block traffic.
- She was invited to a bridal shower, so she brought soap.
- Her husband's name is Otto, and she still can't spell it backwards.
- He goes to a fortuneteller who charges $10 to read brilliant minds, and $5 for average minds. For him it's only 50 cents.
- He stopped a guy from beating his donkey- a real case of brotherly love.

screw 'em

2006-01-21T03:37:00.000-08:00

january 2006 official list of very fucked up things:
1) constants when doing differential eqns
2) organic chemistry---she's a major bitch!

ok so the list is a wee-bit short.
but trust me, these 2 things combined is driving me nuts!

yesterday's training was a very enjoyable one.
like i learned ball management.heh.

met up wif my lovely trio after 1month over! ala i sooo miss them!
yay so monday another meeting session wif them...
tmr,got match at 9.30am.darn.
must sleep early tonight...

resurrection

2006-01-18T05:49:00.000-08:00

today went by mega fast.
coz we had 2 tests back 2 back.
bio then maths.
how the fuck do u integrate e^x2??
nvm.
lunch...had prata n ice achang.
budget-ish!
american idol rawks
new crush: david redford
michael buble-ish voice.bloody hot looks to match!
i LOVE!
desperate housewives returning on 6 feb
!
the joy!
mardi gras...yes!sth to look forward to...
so i heard guys match yest nite they kena trash 14-0. a pity....*like what happened to so-called good-goalkeeping??*

im so bored.i need a new eyecandy.soon.

bits n pieces

2006-01-12T06:41:00.000-08:00

IF YOU ARE BORN IN : AUGUST
Loves to joke
Attractive
Suave and caring
Brave and fearless
Firm and has leadership qualities
Knows how to console others
Too generous and egoistic
Takes high pride of oneself
Thirsty for praises
Extraordinary spirit
Easily angered
Angry when provoked
Easily jealous
Observant
Careful and cautious
Thinks quickly
Independent thoughts
Loves to lead and to be led
Loves to dream
Talented in the arts, music and defence
Sensitive but not petty
Poor resistance against illnesses
Learns to relax
Hasty and rushy
Romantic
Loving and caring
Loves to make friends

Does your name begin with: F
You are idealistic and romantic, putting your lover on a pedestal. You look for the very best mate you can find. You are a flirt, yet once committed, you are very loyal. You are sensuous and privately passionate. Publicly, you can be showy, extravagant, and gallant. You are a born romantic. Dramatic love scenes are a favourite fantasy past time. You can be a very generous lover.

its scary how 80% of these predictions are true for me.however, might i add that unlike other Fs,i feel that i am unable to flirt!and i am not....talented in arts!more like i suck big time at them!oh ya...i fall sick easily too.
to prove my point, i am at this very moment, sneezing away.and i've got a sore throat.
one point the predictions failed to mention is my passion to sleep when i've got nothing better to do!haha!! (=

rainrain

2006-01-10T01:22:00.000-08:00

whats up with the weather?
~rainrainrainrainrainrain~
ok as much as i loved my reddish brown hair of 2months ago, i gotta say i look superbly fab wif almost black hair.(almost being due to the strong intensity of previous hairdye).like snow white liddat!*whistles*
wait.lets consult the mirror.for further affirmation.

mirror to fai: wassup gorgeous?
fai to mirror: just checking myself out...
mirror to fai: nothing's changed.ur still as lawa as ever!
fai to mirror: *run fingers thru my tresses* u positive about that?
-fai checks herself sideways.left.right.upfront.-
mirror to fai: absolutely!the only thing that changes is the increasing degree of how attractive you are!
fai to mirror: oooh i loooove u so! always brightening up my day! (=
**smooches mirror**

epitome of bimbotism.
shuddup i know such a word doesn't exist! but i should be awarded wif the nobel prize for inventing it!
all hail the nobel fai!

*gives head a hard shake*

i have to study for a chemistry test.tomorrow.and im not even starting to study yet.
just came back from siti's place.for once, all 10 cousins were present!!
ribut's fried chicken is undoubtedly sedaaaap!!
she puts the ribut in my food that magnificent brewer!honestly, no pun intended.haha!
hockeying in the rain is always fun! coz we're a bunch of crazy hockers!!
ever wondered how random i can get?
hahaha!
this.is.called.stress!
i've got tons to do!
oh god help me!
thursday got physics test.
chemistry haven't even started studying!
im going to die at an early age!

voyage 2006

2006-01-08T04:18:00.000-08:00

orientation day 1
had a measley 4 hour sleep. woke up extra early so that i could be on time for the ogl briefing at 6.30am in school.
felt rather weird being a senior in school now.its like i say something and the younglings will listen to me!!
ahaha!!
unfortunately for me, hanisah's dream came true and the hot twins were approved in vj.darnnit! i demanded she learn to share!hehe...
so...blablabla,they showed the orientation theme video.rather lame but entertaining.oh and how could i forget! loke yeo, being as fake as ever.ya for those still in the dark, loke yeo IS now the principal of tj. who in the right mind would promote her frm becoming tkgs to tj principal?? asses at moe!
then was in charge of cg 05/06 for our og1.
hmm..the icebreakers were dumb coz we(ogls) dint prepare for it.haha.
then lunch came n went by.
then they taught dhoom machale in the hall. i swear i was so tired of teaching dhoom steps to countless young ones.jinjie and i were so tired of dancing to the same verse or rather, the same song. as much as i like the song, imagine dancing to the same rhythm for like 50++ times.yea...it gets on your nerves after a while!
so nothing really much happened on day1.
day 2
had amazing race.im so unlucky la. the monopoly stations my cg went to were exactly the same ones i went thru for ogl camp. it sucked beyond belief for me coz i was quite bored at many occasions.
then later,taught massdance (retarded). but twas raining very heavily so us at the sports complex danced dhoom n retarded in the rain.fun fun!!
day 3
had wet games in the morning.oh before that, f tong gave his 'welcome speech'. the guy pounced on unsuspecting year ones who had not yet heard of his reputation as tj's DM.for example, the guy in my og was given a 24hr notice to dye his hair black.silly u do not scare them liddat! refer to previous entry abt hair issues; regarding my stand towards this crappy rule.
ok...so aftrenoon taught more mass dance.then at night ,went to suntec to massdance.
one word to describe the night: fucking enjoyable!
the atmosphere was all hyped up and....wooooh!!twas simply fab!
oh prior o that, dinner-ed wif dila at kfc ....hehe..ya abit out of point.
then lina definitely has annoying buggerish ogms. sumone replied'zenith' when she asked for the name of the person smsing her.haha.she teared in the mrt when few other senseless smses came back to her! joyride indeed.
oh n i've come to a conclusion she's got all the luck in the world! first dj guy's voice n now...the 'foreigner'!grrr....
reached home at 11pm.and yes to a rather pleasant surprise.
i wonder if he is jealous by now....
day4
og's busy preparing their skits for the auditions.basically i rotted about wif dila,lina n nat.
nothing worthy to blog abt.
o-nite!
was fucking amazing!
they had 3 rockbands down.
everyone jumping up n down, going all wild n carayzehh!!
and created a club-like atmosphere when dancing the massdances.as in lights out in the hall. only spotlights.
way cool!!
especially dhoom!
came home at 12am.yea.when i left at 11.30pm, they were still dancing to s club.haha.tj suddenly so power sia the orientation!

insomniac?

2006-01-02T07:23:00.000-08:00

why can't i seem to fall asleep??
i have to wake up at 5am!
thats less than 6hours away! *bites nails*
coz ogls r supposed to be in school by 6.30am!
yes.i know.that's a tebiat hour!
the hour i gotta haul myself outta bed is even more tebiat!!
always liddat...when the next day is the first day of school...i can't sleep!
argh!
no im not excited.
i have nothing to look forward to.
more like i dun wan school to start.
that signifies:
1)no more playing-a-fool
2)the a's are approaching,whether i like it or not.
3)i can no longer have luxurious 12 hour sleep.
4)weekends are now meant for constant revision.

this is starting to annoy me!
why in the name of heavens can't i sleep?!?!?!?

randomly random

2006-01-02T03:16:00.002-08:00

somebody slap me!
i've successfully wasted yesterday and today instead of bloody revising biology.
yes.
i have not touched biology in 2 months.
my lamentable excuse for not wanting to concentrate today is that i deserve a break before school starts full-swing!!
after all, i'm gg to try devoting myself to muggerism.
actually, who am i kidding?
i'll never be able to sacrifice my social time to study.
i do not possess that much self-discipline.
eh....aha!this shall be a challenge to myself in 2006 : to have self-discipline!

please wash away this dilemma.grrr...

"dancing bears,painted wings
things i almost remember
and a song someone sings
once upon a december

someone holds me safe and warm
horses prance thru' a silverstorm
figures dancing gracefully
across my memory"
-anastasia-

new year

2005-12-31T22:53:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!

exactly a year ago, i went clubbing for the first time in my life!
it was mega fun! went to sum chillout place at mohd.sultan area.and then, headed for thumper.
even met taufik there and took pics (=
not that im a fan or anything, but one naturally gets excited at being in close proximity to celebs.
my passion for dancing multiplied once i saw the atmosphere on the dancefloor! it was amazing....people...dancing, setting differnces aside...just mingling...and dancing!!stayed there for a good 4 hours.yes....only came home at 6am.a close family member ,who shall not be disclosed,was my clubbing companion, along with her good friend.
the shittiest part was the next day when i found out my mum found out i was at a club. i still wonder till today who the #@%ing bitch who blabbered to my mum is!! grrr....

and this year.new years' eve.amal forced me to go for her school alumni's boogie nite at tamp west cc.
so since my ticket was kindly paid for(only $5..) i went! the beginning bit was so boring.i was smsing lina, who was sitting directly across me, and talking to amal,sab and aminah during most of the first 1 hour.
ooh...from the moment i was taking entry, the bouncer in blue caught my attention.he is so bloody hott!alas, he could not dance as well to match his looks unfortunately...
and best part of it! lina and me sooo have similar taste when it comes to spotting hot men.haha!
then makan2 andden the dancefloor was open to all! so after more people started dancing, the 5 of us (me,amal,lina,aminah,sab) also started geleking.
the music wasn't great and the dj aka blue guy kept replaying the same soundtracks!argh!nvm...i still sabar
then something out of the ordinary happened.shall not elaborate here.
i mean i've never experienced it b4.
except that my uncle's friend tried hitting on me while dancing last year at thumper n he recoiled in shock and became all 'uncle-ish' when he found out im 'syed's niece!haha....

and why won't anyone believe im 17 ! just coz i've got that youthful glow about me...i just don't look my age sumhow!dammit!

oh n sumone was mighty tired of people complementing me the entire night.haha...he tried seeking solace from all that by escaping to macs, only to be found and bombarded with other queries abt me there.funny world i live in...

anw...my evening was cut short by ama shifa coming to pick amal n aminah home coz ami man was not happy they were at a dinner and dance! i can't wait to turn 18, even better still 21 and i'll legally be an adult and can do what i please,when i please. next year, legal to club! hooray! maybe another new year eve's outing at the nation countdown or better still at some reclusive club!
with the beginning of this new year, i vow to:
1)study hard.
2)not be distracted!
3)prioritise my agendas.
4)be focused.
5)play hard and work hard.
6)get even prettier...haha

*fai embraces 2006 with a smile and positive outlook!*

new years eve 05

2005-12-30T22:44:00.000-08:00

yesterday met hanis very early in the morning.i was earlier than her...for once!haha...historic moment indeed!
so went to the times book sale at the expo.nothing too fab...i mean any booksale that does not carry authors like judith mcnaught or sidney sheldon should not be allowed! what is the point of publicizing the event when books for sale are not worth browsing thru?! spent a good deal of time searching for a single book that might interest but none--zilch.
the cooking books section was also rather dull.
they did not carry receipe books for biscuit-making,thus losing me as a potential buyer.

anw, had lunch after that at bk.
after, we decided to head back to the mrt station but the 'metro warehouse sale' sign caught my attention!
they were selling the adidas perfume for only $3.50! i decided i must have it!

went in but unfortunately for me, the scent wasn't too great! but what was great was the shoe selection! slippers; 2 for $7.90! what a bargain!and they were nice too! initially, i chose 6 slippers and chucked them into the bag.but later, as i surveyed the rather extensive shoe selection--i slowly and with much discipline, placed 4 pairs of slippers back onto the rack.instead, i bought a gorgeous black bohemian-inspired sandal for $20!i mean at least that would last longer than the other 2 cheaper ones....
oh! hanis should be a personal shopper--she's got a knack for fishing out good tops/slacks from the messy pile of clothes all jumbled up together.i mean she got me a lovely unique-looking green top for only $5! i could rummage thru the same pile of 'junk' and never be able to find such a good bargain if left on my own!
oh! and the slight confusion i had with what to wear to tonight's 'party' was solved as well! we got me not one--but two gorgeous tops, both priced at $15.90 each! and to go with the black embroidered top, was an interesting orange striped black pants.at first glance, i would never consider buying it--but it matches sooo well with the black top so i just had2 get it!! plus twas only $9.90!ahh...sales...the pleasures it brings!
so we spent 3 hours there,--trying out shoes n clothes and criticized clothes as we went along! haha...soo fun!!
best of all, i got daddy to pay for my purchases!my purchases totalled up2 $102.70!!i payed $20.70 on my own--its really saddening to be parted with my money, but the satisfaction gained in owning gorgeous-er clothing was worth it!!
then with the giant metro plastic bag,we went to challenger at tamp to check out the ipod hanis was planning to get. the ipod video-enabled one.which bloody costs an astounding $548! give me that money, and i could go shopping all over again, and come home with a guess top or pants from zara.
yes if u haven't guessed it already--i love shopping!! its fabulous, especially if i don't have to foot the bill!hehe....
strangely, this passion has recently increased after reading the entire 'confessions of a shopaholic' collection!
earlier this year, i bought myself a hair straightener! then in august, my expenditure-style became abit more extravagant--- i bought myself the nokia 3320,that was worth $568! paid for 3/4 of it!but the features of the hp became the envy of my friends, the 1.3 megapixel cam.(at that point of time, aysha had had pekak nokia hp which was clearly past expired and was longing to see its own grave.so she was extraly jealous of my phone!haha!now got the pink motorola razr,thank goodness abit more uptodate!)

speaking of pink, saw funky pink earphone covers at challenger! i will buy it--very soon!
then met mama at her office and went home together-yeah with me lugging that huge plastic bag everywhere i went after the expo!

so now. before i get dressed and all pretty for tonight, i shall study.
oh, got the list of ogm's to call.honestly out of the 800 names i saw, 1/6 were either weird/funny-sounding/bizzare! talked to aysha till 2am yesterday--had a lovely time bitching about the names and other stuffsl.haha...yes i know i can be such a bitch at times...can't help it! there's a bitch in all of us!
for the remaining time, i shall not model the clothes i bought, nor will i contemplate how to do my hair for this evening! i shall revise maths, 3D trigo to be more specific.

sumbody's brother sounded sexy o the phone earlier on!haha...darn im so cheeky at times! (=

titled

2005-12-28T00:02:00.000-08:00

yesterday's ogl camp was nothing short from boring.ok i shall judge fairly.either i was unenthusiastic.or the atmosphere was simply not hyped up enough.
in this case,i choose the latter to be the cause for my boredom.
there were fun moments.but few comparatively.
we tried out the amazing race or rather "monopoly" thingy.covered bedok reservoir....could that be the reason for my boredom i wonder...
xinyi tried escaping from massdance but twas raining so she had to face her greatest fear:exhibiting her non-existent talent at dancing.
i love dancing to dhoom !! coz its the second massdance i can completely get without a hitch!
anws,ponned camp n hockey today.simply too lazy for starters.secondly,i've got alot of revision and homework to complete.
unlike aysha who has been consistently doing chem,i've yet to try out practice papers and whatnots!
gosh im so tanned its disgusting!my arms are a fugly brown shade.i DO NOT like to be anything lesser than fair! so now i have on me whitening lotion,if it helps at all!
i'll be back in the sun full swing starting next week so why bother right?wrong! being temporarily fair again is blissful...to me!

mama was off today so she dyed my hair dark brown, to get rid of -in her words- the unhealthy reddish brown shade on my head!
since im too lazy to keep hiding/running away whenever f tong or fatbioman ng sees me in school,i have magnanimously decided to have my original dark brown shade back.
after a levels, haha! i shall and will dye my hair whatever striking colour pleases me and noone will dissuade me otherwise!hrm!its my prerogative and human right to do whatever i please to my hair, since its growing on scalp, not yours!schools ought to undertsand this basic human right but nooo!they choose to control the young,with the pretext of keeping them under leash so that they would not go astray.rubbish!
honestly what is the harm done if a student wishes to dye his/her hair?
i can only come up with 5 pausible reasons why schools ban thus.
1) they like the monotony of their environment (eg. all brunettes)
2) colourful hair might distract the lecturer
3)they are forcing us to appreciate our natural hair colour and not 'destroy' it.
4)since this is probably implemented by some old person with no life whatsoever, he/she very probably is balding or is unsuccessfully treated at yun nam haircare and is thus taking revenge for their plight on innocent students who happen to have hair in abundance!
5)purely being unreasonable and ignorant of basic human rights!

putting the hair issue aside,
physics is such a chore.
i need a tutor.
nect week is going to be hell!

2005-12-26T04:17:00.000-08:00

i cud've sworn i wrote an entry on wednesday.but i guess twas not an up-to-standard entry and hence blogger conveniently decided to delete it.argh!
interesting day was on thursday.
had a match frm 7-9pm.
that very night lina appeared on klinik kita.hahaha!! we watched her receiving therapy on the portable ceekopek tv dila brought.mind u the bloody batteries were dying laa! it was in black n white summore.but we managed to see her! hehe...ppl showering came out especially to view her getting rubbed!
we lost the match quite expectedly coz the opponent was some pro team.the girls had so much energy i wonder where they get it from....
anws...after changing bla3...ate at the prata cafe in front of ccab.
yes camwhored abit.then had prata.
raf n nad ordered a rather exotic looking prata topped with a scoop of icecream and choco rice.looked tantalizing!!
twas already 10+pm.was getting nervous.confirm mama will kill me when i reach home!
but really...i must get used to this kinda "late-night" supper.its going to be habitual once im legally an adult.unleashed i will be. =)
so i reached home at 11.55pm.
took advantage of the fact that mama was in the bathroom.quickly changed and got onto bed.unfortunately, i was unable to trick her into believeing i was long asleep.so she entered my room momentarily and started screaming at me.and demanded i quit hockey.threatened to complain to the principal.threatened alot more.i was too exhausted to argue so for once, i just stomached what she was jabbering about. then after she was done exhausting herself,she left my room. i fell asleep soon after....
friday.did some studying.then packed and left for siti's place since mama was leaving for kl till monday night.
so here i am, back at home from a rather interesting weekend away.

2005-12-19T23:58:00.000-08:00

loads to blog about!!
kay for starters, sunday.
went to sum aljunied wedding at hougang cc.met aysha n ameera,ibtisam,iman,nawal,noorie.
silly amal woke up late and was shagged from camp.bullshit.
i miss amal! 1 week never see her laa....until monday (=
anws....kat wedding.
the moment i stepped out of the car, saw a hot guy.whees...
went inside.salam2 ppl.then near the buffet table was where the guys congregated.haha.yes.i had a nice time queing for food.
mystery guy in black by the door was most attractive!!
then blablabla...ate alot...coz food was good...
home.was randomly moody all of a sudden.so i decided to meet up wif amal to cheer me up.so we went to siti's place together.oh yaa!thanks to amal n minnie for the pencilcase!i heart u gurls muchos!
then siti pulak masak spaghetti.YUM!
ami ali n his kids also came.so twas alot of ppl at siti's that sunday.
rushed home at 9.30pm to continue watching kkhh.
i never did cry so much for that movie as i did that night.it could be due to the disturbing environment i was in. or simply coz i've not watched that show for ages!
monday.got up early.mass dance practice.i swear i cannot do 'lets get it started'! the fancy footwork is just beyond my comprehension.i cannot master the chimness behind those 'sudden-changes-in-footwork'.
fine that done.went home tired.calf aches.and its getting worse today.i feel pain when i stand up!
wasted the entire day by sleeping.urgh!
then amal woke me up in the middle of my glorious extended nap.she had2 buy black cloth for banner-making by today.bloody brilliant.so i was forced to wake up from some nice dream i was having and accompany her.took a bus down to geylang.roamed the "shopping centres" there for the cheapest cloth shop.then searched for d.i.y. shops to get oil paint in specific yellow and orange shades.amal is mighty cerewet!!
today.again mass dance practice.learned the dhoom machale steps.i love it! coz it finally involves ass-shaking;something im more accustomed to than nasty footwork! partnered jinjie,who did his fair share of shaking.haha!funfun!!
then afters, went to city plaza wif dila,nad n azimah to get dila's vcds. since they were not available there, dila decided to brilliantly drag us to little india to hunt those ancient vcds.
so fine.firstly, got off at the stop milessss away from mustafa.hrmph.then once there, we find out they don't carry those titles.bugger.u think evergreen movies tak laku izzit?ppl like adilah still alive ok! and amazingly, i've got a good sense of direction today.haha!

k then. bought my milk sweets.mmmm....
finally after combing the entire serangoon area for the bloody vcds(yes we finally found a shop selling the godforsaken vcd,after entering about a dozen shops). my calfs were cramping so bad.so nad decided that i needed 'sus kambing'.i innocently thought twas to strenghten my bones or sth liddat, but wait! it was a lame remark, since when translated kambing=calf!!
hahaha! *cue to laff*
but indeed we had quite an adventure today.fun la k dila!despite ur lousy navigating skills.hehe.nasib i sayang u!oh then on the way home in 65, met coach n his wife.so he came over n tok2 to us until i had2 leave.
overall.a nice start to the week so far!
its just that, schools reopening abit too soon, and my gargantuan pile of homework is beginning to freak me out!

rantings

2005-12-14T20:35:00.000-08:00

stop bugging me.
leave me alone.
i enjoy my solitude and peace of mind thanks.
why is this overwhelming pressure felt ,shooting out of every corner i turn to?
cloud 9 expectations.
im only human.
caught in extraordinary circumstances.
get me out of this!
its suffocating.
a futile attempt.
i know.yet, why do i pursue it as such?
i need.to clear.my mind.
free it of negativity.

2005-12-14T06:09:00.000-08:00

sunday
i can now proudly claim to have done abit of my homework.
so i was being a good girl(who took many unnecessary breaks i must say) right uptill the moment aunty fau called.so apparently there's this arab gathering thingy at arab street.like where else would arabs congregate right?hehe.no pun intended!
anyways, twas at samar.aysha's dad claims it has a rather notorious rep.
so she couldn't go.hahaha.im so mean at times!
so yes dressed up pretty2.aunty fau picked me up along wif siti.amal ditched me.oh yes u did woman!so arrived there.
i think i can honestly like that place.nice chill-out area i must say.with the promise of many potential eye-candy.hehe.
so the beginning bit was like boring.damn boring.then makan2.then the dancing began.i love to dance.i love gelek-ing.i wanna learn to bellydance properly after a levels!
so came home only towards 1-ish.
so since i cudnt wake up for hockey next day, i ponned it.easy!

monday
aysha n vib came over.played card games.turns out that vib is really an ass.i mean it.ahaha.donkeyy!!

tuesday
checkup at skin ctr.doc was impressed.my pimples r officially gone. hence, the old me is back.exept that im tanner.grr...

wednesday
ran 16km.madness ryt.yes.i fucking agree.from tj to changi beach and back.
then went outin heels after that.man i miss sya.had mudpie at coffee bean.nice2.sat n chatted for 2hours gitu.then walked around abit n got immersed in spanish self-help books at kinokuniya. i might seriously consider taking up spanish after the big a's .see i've got many plans to occupy myself during the ultimate freedom-months.of course i plan to get a job that pays well enough for my entravagant expenditures.just today i bought an irresistible opal necklace.i swear it was calling out to me.i hadto buy it.it was made for my exclusive wear, i just know it.gorgeousss.
and i officially have very shagged legs wic are dying to be massaged. but alas, i see no-one up to the task.mama laughed when i told her to picit me.evil indeed.she suggested summore i help her to chores.nonsense!
im off to bed.

2005-12-10T07:09:00.000-08:00

crimson tide has arrived.bringing with it disastrous side effects.
lovely coded term coined by sya.ingenious really!!
yesterday had once of the worse-ever cramp.
literally rendered me useless the entire day after training. it began attacking me from the moment i came outta the shower.
couldn't get sleep half the night due to the insane cramping in progress.i bloody mean the entire night.
i even tried reading up my maths notes to get my mind to focus on something else, heck even tried reading a book...but noooo!! my mind simply refuses to register anything besides the gargantuan amount of pain i was experiencing.
today tried taking painkillers.i swear they are not very effective. or maybe this long-time-no-see cramps is simply too strong and smart for the painkillers to fight down.
bugger.like i couldn't move an inch out of bed for a third of the day w/o writhing in agony thereafter.
ooo i feel new waves of agony coming my way.guess its gonna be a rough sleepless night again.im gonna get fugly dark circles under my lovely brown eyes ,or worse, eyebags at this rate! urghhh!!
pms comes as a 'bonus' in addition to the pain.
horribly sappy plus snappy the entire day.
and i've got weird cravings for foodstuffs.
and to watch a movie that will make me cry truckloads.hrm.
welcome to the life of a girl-not-yet-a-woman.

guys=jerks

2005-12-09T04:27:00.000-08:00

GUYS ARE THE BIGGEST JERKS OF THE UNIVERSE.

there you go.with that statement, i've managed to offend every guy who reads this blog.honestly, i couldn't care less. i don't give a rats ass what you guys think.oh wait, can you even afford to think without the existence of a brain??definitely something worth pondering over....NOT!coz guys are simply a waste of time.yes.they are.

lemme see.my life has indeed been made very difficult since an early age(think 2yrs old)...why? its easy.mom gets married to a guy andden tadah! i arrive. what does the guy do? make life living hell for her.details shall not be elaborated.screw the fact im talking about my dad. im old enough to have my own opinions about such so-called delicate matters.
then comes another guy, stepdad. what does he do?
separates my mum from her family.
actually, don't even get me started on what damage he has already done to the once close-knit family. i can remember the extent of damage clearly as it progressively occured throughout my crucial growing up years of 12 till now.and personally, i hate him. for more than a million reasons.

though abuse was not practised in both cases, i've got ample experience with both men to say this out . guys should just disappear from the surface of this world.literally.

what suddenly inspired me to blog about such things?
well, for starters...lets just say i've been disillusioned.
maybe its just the pms typing this away.wtv.
today spurred this guy-hating entry.
im in too much angst and this is the perfecto channel to let it all out.
ARGH!

the week

2005-12-08T04:17:00.000-08:00

began monday with a 2 day job attachment at alexandra hospital. there were only 3 ppl posted there--me,peiwen n zafir.
so i had2 haul myself out of bed at 6am and surprisingly, i was even 30mins early for both the days.so i had a chance to have breakfast b4 "working".
so got name taggies frm the admin n had2 sigh this secrecy kinda form. felt so grown up.haha.
first, was posted to xray1,where they did boring xrays of bone density or wtv shit that was. luckily there was a nanyang poly radiography student i made fast friends with...so i spent 4 meaningful hours chatting away with my new found friend!alas i've got good company!
then lunch.so someone(obviously not me!) suggested the hawker ctr coz its cheaper than the hospital canteen food.ok.so after walking a considerable distance--up and down the overhead bridge, we see a totally non-halal hawker ctr. but bearing in mind we're in singapore, there must be another food ctr sumwhere right, so yea we walked summore, and then tadaah! one malay stall found.so we settled ourselves there. then it started pouring heavily!then the hour we're supposed to report back to the hospital for our attachment to the next department draws nearer...2pm...2.05pm..2.10pm! offically 10mins late.so we decided to walk back the long sheltered way. then of coz kena abit of heavy drizzle.bah!
so next up, was MRI scan room. that was way cool! the guy there was talking to me for 2hours straight.very nice humurous guy! then the ang moh doc there was nice too! so yes day1 saw many friendly new personalities.
day2
was rather shagged despite having 8hours of sleep.again was 30min early--like for twice in my life i'm actually extremely punctual!first up, ultrasound!sounds cool right...wrong!! ultrasound at alexandra is mainly done for the kidneys,liver..basically boring organs.not like for pregnant women...coz the hospital apparently caters alot to the aging citizens.so i had zero goodlooking people to look at!story of my life...
then i took like 3 self declared breaks coz the sonographer said she was very busy that day and that i could take breaks,she won't mind! i guess she knows her job basically sucks laa!took a walk to the pretty fountain i saw.got wara to keep me company for abit on the phone.
then blablabla...lunched at delifrance.
then had ct scan attachment till 4.30pm.ct scan has gotta be the second boringest xray type. or perhaps, i just can't appreciate the jibberish images that appear on the monitor and have radiographers claiming to see a cis formation in the pancreas, gall bladder, kidney--when i see naught!!
so i do not possess the sight! how harry potter-ish.hehe.
then thats basically the end of my hospital attachment.i refuse to divulge any further information.coz im lazy to type.and only my close friends deserve to know alot more.

wednesday

had2 wake up early once again for hockey trg. i was rather high during trg coz i was at a point beyond exhaustion i guess.or maybe coz coach said " eh arab! u have improved alot!" hahaha! smiles smiles!! then went lunch at kfc with dila,lina n kas.went home, napped.watched miss world asia pacific voting.

today
woke up early--yes once again!
met aysha,hanisah,wara n vib to study at vj. as usual we can never get much studying done when its the group of us!b4 studying, we had a few rounds of bridge at the treehouse. its soo cool to have a treehouse in school! so windy lagi...aaah!! basically had whole lot of lucky hands at bridge till the final game i lost.haha.there were discussions about playing pool after we study, but i resisted temptation and decided very firmly we must study,no pool! behold good fai!
then lunched at banquet.then rotted for 2hrs at starbucks at mpcc, until the golden hour of 5pm--whereby the good people at starbucks were giving free coffee away! any flavour of ur choice! ape lagi...so we sat there and talked and talked and talked then i bought a yummylicious choco muffin.

so i had a free sample of toffeenut cappucino before the actual frappucino mocha i had. we camwhored abit at starbucks, oblivious to people looking at us. oh n the us is now;me aysha n hanisah only! then sat awhile longer n left at 6pm. 15-ed with aysha and reached home b4 mama. im so efficient! nice day. tmr got beach run for hockey. then we girls are gonna play2 in the sea.so shiokkk!! ahh...a nice week indeed! =)

2005-12-01T19:53:00.000-08:00

woke up only after 13 hours of sleep.

maybe its the effect of too much sleep
im randomly upset today.
i tear at sappy lyrics right now.
what is wrong with me?
i don't like crying.
it makes me feel weak.
im a strong person.
i do not like others to see when i cry.
thats why im rarely seen not smiling/frowning or wtv else expression.
just not crying.
argh!

wara's birthday

2005-12-01T03:21:00.000-08:00

wara's birthday celebration.
so aysha woke me up from my glorious sleep at 7.15am.then since she sounded sleepy as well, we decided to delay the meeting time abit.so finally dragged myself outta bed at 8am. ok not really.then tossed about in bed for another half hour before deciding twas really time to get up.haha.lazy me.
met aysha n wara at 10am in the end at vj busstop.
got a sandwich from 7-11 then headed for east coast.
reached there in 10mins.then quickly laid down the mat and began applying sunblock/suntan lotion. naturally i applied sunBLOCK!
then ran into the sea. gosh i miss playing in the sea.sooo much fun!! we were in there for 4hours. yea we camwhored alott alott andden gave each other rides and me and aysha acted all lesbianish and vib and wara tried separating us! oh btw...wara claims to have seen the moon when it was noon! and aysha's also known as dishan or otherwise shithead.haha.for details so as to why she's called shithead, ask me,wara or better still aysha's mum!
apparently i can float in the water provided i relax.no wonder i also take a head-first plunge into the water when i attempt,coz im nervous!haha.clear my mind of all thoughts.thats the key.
oh ya! halfway in the sea, vib came and brought wara's birthday cake.then we ate at first and then i began teh caking-each-other session.me and wara's caking each other action was video-ed by aysha.haha.in the end, everyone of us got caked.hehehe.but twas really super fun!
cleaned ourselves up in the sea.
then played on till 2pm.then the sun finally came up.
had a round of bridge b4 vib decided we were getting violently roasted and therefore, we bathed while crazy wara n aysha stayed on to tan! they're so yellow they need a healthy glow to their skin i swear! esp aysha,miss lembek of the century!hahaha!!
it was rather easy keeping someone's arrival later at 3pm a secret from aysha.though she did ask y we were being secretive.so i fabriated a story about how i always wanted to see vib's ben.and she believed it till the moment i brought her to the fountain area depan komalas andden she got the pleasantest surprise of 3months!=) sooo sweeeet!!
then after she left, we walked abit and voila! a row of small shops! i ended up buying a nice skirt and a [pair of aasidas shorts! very worth it! total: $20. end result: im dead broke. im a miser now i dun gif a damn!
so ya.after that we rented bicycles for an hour,decided not to meet aysha n play pool.private moments are needed.heh.
my ass is aching from the ride.ouch ouch ouch. actually, my whole body is reeling from the effects of a super fun yet tiring day. a day well spent with my best friends.incredibly amazing fun and purely memorable!!
while walking back from east coast, i swear me n vib were acting like drunkards. and wara was surprisingly acting sane.haha. i bet the fries we ate were spiked! or we were acting out of tiredness!haha!
i got tanned big time w/o realising it till i looked into the mirror at home.boy was i shocked! mama said i looked like a bangla.eeeeewww.....
i wanna hibernate.then only face people when im my fair self again.im so dark i dun recognise myself anymore.applying whitening moisturiser for precaution sake.
oh and wara just smsed saying she had a gr8 time!! well...once again, happy birthday darling! i heart u!

first ever match

2005-11-30T03:33:00.000-08:00

today.
woke up at 6.30am.
quickly dressed up.
spent the previous night doing some stretches to ease the muscular pains(i swear my whole body aches!)
i felt like a nenek the entire day yesterday.
followed amal here there everywhere.in heels.sumtimes i really am dumb!
like twas very very hot, walking about in heels mind you...
nvm.at least got to watch the last bit of salaam namaste vcd amal has. nice show! likelike.

ok so back to today.was feeling jitterish the whole morning coz i was going to be playing in my first ever hockey match.
double checked everything then left home.
lina was abit late.see i can be punctual when the occasion calls for it!haha! =)
so tradada....redhill! warmed up...went through game plan...i was trying to remain calm.
i went to toilet twice before the game began!talk about nerves...my stomach was filled with butterflies!
game was good...i mean for our first ever match laa.against tpjc. lost 1-0. but twas a good game.
i felt it was over abit too soon.amazingly i did not feel tired while running about the pitch.and i dint even have breakfast(unless milo is considered eating...)
then showered after the match.
showering was soo funn! haha..coz of dila's floating centipede in her cubicle.my towel came to her rescue! haha...funny stuff.
i think i look extra good with the headband on and therefore shall make it a point to wear it more often!!
so we had lunch as a team at tiong bahru plaza's kfc. had a 3piece chicken meal.i was hungry only upon sniffing in the smell of chickennnnn......
then me dila n huda rushed to lido for the 3.05pm show of just like heaven. haha...we were like 5mins late for the show..having rushed from tiong bahru at 2.45pm!!
and my slippers buat hal.grrr....
happy ending show--i like!
then we made our way to taka to get my cheese sausages...and then ended up buying 4 scoops of haagen daaz icecream as well coz dila had a voucher! the 4 heavenly flavours were : pinna cotta & raspberry, midnight cookies,vanilla caramel and brownie and finally....caramel pudding! orgasmic experience by the fountain. such a fun time!! then we rushed to meet fad and then took the wrong train from raffles place to tg.pagar instead of going east1 thats the second time i've made that mistake!!
anws....im dead tired now.and tomorrow is wara's birthday.
celebrating it with her aysha n vib at east coast beach tmr. and we're gg to have a surprise for her! gosh im too nice at times!! =P

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WARAPHORN!!
thanks for being a fab best friend all these years.love youuuu!!!

2005-11-27T20:36:00.000-08:00

i can't stop eating spaghetti at adilah's open house today.
it rocks.
its deeeeeelicious!
makes the trip all the way to her place at woodlands damn worth it.
plus twas fun rotting in her room.
im full.
but yet i crave.
moooore fooooooooooooooooood!!! =)
gemuk baru tau...heh...personal reminder!

2005-11-26T13:40:00.000-08:00

finished reading confessions of a shopaholic yesterday night. and bought cocopops!! nicenice.
rushed home after trg to shower, since i stink after training. no amount of aztique or other body shop products can mask the smell. even if others don't smell me, i DO! i've got this uncanny ability to smell myself and i just KNOW i smell ok!then wara the freak made me rot about tamp for an hour while waiting for her to pass me european gigolo vcd.grr....
its a stupid show. i don't recommend it. and the jokes are like ha ha ha funny...not like super funny like HAHAHA!!
once again i feel mama is very jealous of the number of hours of sleep i get. so she starts waking me up at like 11.30am. ok i know thats like late for most people but i sleep late...so stop ur incessant nagging about how too much sleep is unhealthy!
its not like im getting more than 12hours, really!
and i enjoy sleeping.
i mean ur mind and soul is at peace and you don't sin! the best yet combo!
unless ur a wet dreamer then well...u sin as u sleep! haha!

i should really start studying! i can't recall a single thing i've learnt this year. its HIGH TIME i start revision. nadzira kindly reminded me yesterday. i've been postponing for like...2weeks now! that a grand total of 14 days! and what have i been doing? wasting my time...ok not really waste time laa...i mean i enjoy myself outdoors with my friends all the time!
i will endeavour to stop going out unnecessarily and devote more time to revision! and recently, i've been thinking that im not really serious about getting into med. i know for a fact i can't make it. why torture myself.i know i shouldn't give up prematurely, but face it. i like enjoying my life, not slogging away all the time.
something is wrong with me.

2005-11-24T20:30:00.000-08:00

been seeking refuge from those horrible nightmares(fine twas only one disturbed night of sleep!)
at siti's place.
she kept nagging about how anak dara not supposed to be out till late...blablabla
her definition of late is like 5pm!! so when i strolled back home at 7.30pm she was quite furious....like in the first place i did not mention going out with u right?
so its been a whole week of fun with my girlfriends.
yesterday was pool with muni.
the day before was.....oh! meeting hanis and walking about tamp.
today was supposed to meet wara n hanis at wara's place at 10am to watch european gigolo....but obviously i was unable to wake up! watched american music awards on starworld at aunty fau's till late so ya....
i got a shock when i woke up to like 12 missed calls and 7 messages!!
so instead went over to vib's place to celebrate her birthday with her. me aysha vib.
vibs mum makes chappatis as though its the easiest thing in the world. i've got a video of vibs unsuccessful attempt at making one!! haha....im blackmailing u with it for life woman! nyahaha
and food was gooooooood!!
then we indulged in homemade choco chip cookies and chocolate cake. and we played....monopoly!!
like i've been dying to play it for sooo long!! and guess who won...urs truly!! =)
aysha likes to cheat...ALOT!
and vib is not observant enough when playing the game.hahahahaha!!
oh and they taught me taiti too today! too bad there wasn't time enough for a game of UNO.ahh..miss all those games!
ok so i can't seem to stop reading 'confessions of a shopaholic'
gone are those self-promises to start studying.
its like im busy with something every single damn day!
when will i ever find time to start focusing?!? grr...
and now plans to spend a day at sentosa are on the way....
goodbye premature studying-plans.they will NEVER be put into action at this rate!

oh n today aysha was scaring me with stories about how god punishes those who do not wear tudung. throughout the 15 ride she was doing that.ustazah aysha.
stay away from me!

2005-11-22T13:00:00.000-08:00

somehow my weekend activities has eclipsed from my mind.i barely remember what i did!
monday had hockey.im beginning to like it more n more...hmm perhaps coz i can play better? hehe...
then rushed home to jln raya wif tkg ppl.they were of course fashionably late...as i am always!
we spent nearly 2hours at each house.
naturally my house dorang buat macam rumah sendiri....while waiting for me to get dressed.took millions of pics.
then headed for hanisah's place.which is near clearwater.and a LONG walk from the busstop!i don't like walking long distances in heels!!anws...i made an outright effort to please her mother and well..make up for what she saw of me during prom night.-i honestly tink a toga is a sopan dress...well..maybe not so-
i think her mum knows me as well as she does! coz the silly girl lets her mum read her smses! grrr....
took a cabbie to hanis's place.
then unsuccessfully tried watching 'what a girl wants' at hanis' place. hanisah is soo afraid of cats...haha...kesian.
but really hanis' cat looks haunted and well...not pet material at all. try glow-in-the-dark eyes...and that too mismatched eyes. i mean they're of different colors! freaky!and its fur coat is a peculiar shade of black. i wonder how she lives with that 'thing',especially during the nights!
and i think hanis can already start running a very successful pirated vcd shop.she's got like the most impressive and the widest collection of movies...majulah piracy!
aysha's house.
muhammad is damn cute.potential hottie.and yes aysha...he is adorable for a younger bro u hear! ur other bro aman however needs to purify his mind and stop thinking 'saw' is the best movie when it sucks beyond belief!
for those who are unaware...i hate despise loathe detest any form of horror/thriller movie!
why torture ur mind with the gross gruesome disgusting unholy scenes when it can remain pure ?
bottomline is....i hate such movies to the core. i will never and can never like them.end of discussion.
i believe aman n aysha's mum had a nice time laughing at the look on my face the entire time.i was scared outta my wits!!
and that too i tried shutting my eyes tightly.tried to play about with my hp.showed polite interest in hanis cleaning my nail polish off for me.hid my face behind hanisah's shoulder.i tried so many things ok! and still im afraid....ok im a pengecut.fine.ok.im cool with that.really.
then at the corridor they were telling us of how sum neighbour jumped off and killed himsef. i immediately insisted we leave the place pronto. plus twas already 10pm.and my house is not exactly near pasir ris! so me n hanisah ended up taking a cab back home.
slamat mama tak marah sangat smalam when i reached home nearly 11pm. *phew*

meeting hanis today to take the vcds i want to borrow from her.then we rambling about tm to get her wtv stuffs.hopefully we will make time to study maths.ok more like try doing maths hol hwk...which is like belambak!

and i had the hardest time sleeping smalam i swear!!

busiest week yet

2005-11-18T20:42:00.000-08:00

ok.monday went for hockey trg.then hanis belanja me n aysha for a manicure n pedicure session at bio nails kat white sands.
at first i was ticklish especially when the lady started scrubbing my feet.hehe.then chose a nice pale shade of pink.yes its not obvious! thats the point so that mama won't notice! ok...proceeding on...

tuesday
bloody hectic.
went jalan raya with tj mcs.soooo funn!!
visited a whooping 10 or 11 houses in total! like 1/4 of singapore covered in one day.i think laa....

after that rushed home n dad sent me to the safra chalet at changi for 4e2 chalet. i slept overnight.more like i had sucha good time laffing and crapping and all the entire night. slept very very very early in the morning.haha.try nearly subuh time. =)

wednesday.
wara is a friggin bugger.disturbed me when i was sleeping.and ya she was sleeping beside me too the entire time...bleahs...haha
played bridge alotalot of times.charades.pool.arcade games.taboo. had bbq. basically very very very fun!i miss those all-girl gatherings whereby we indulge in sillyshit and kickass entertainment!! =)
the group of us have a VERY distorted definition of brotherly love.hahahahhahaha
thanks to my 'book'. =P

thursday
watched harry potter and the goblet of fire. i swear i enjoyed it SO MUCHOS!! then we sneaked into sky high and mind u....we watched from the very beginning!! hehe....free movie!

friday=today
had hockey.
lunch with huda at macs
tried napping once home.
ended up puking coz -i dunno why-
now i feel terribly ill....
and someone wants to 'berkenalan' with me.
fascinating! *detect sarcasm*

fever

2005-11-12T18:40:00.000-08:00

im finally at home.
for the entire day.
thats only coz my outing-frenzy has taken its toll on me.
so has staying up till late.
i m now down with a fever.
basically spent the day in bed.

woke up and sent ama piah off at the airport.
saw a hot thing at the airport.
but he was prolly much older.heck.he looked smart enuff! =)
plus he was travelling with a family aquaintance.mmmm

i tink i haf an insatiable appetite for food recently.
i cant stop eating.
its practically non-stop exercise of my gums from the moment i arise from slumberland.

i like freebies.
and i already got the coveted harry potter tix.
have i mentioned it yet?
haha.
excitedness!!
5 days more n counting down.....

i think daddy is very angry wimme.shucks.

2005-11-11T18:01:00.000-08:00

pw is officially over! no more cracking my brains coming up with lie-coated reports like GPP, I&R and wtv shit else.

PW IS OVERR!!
the suckiest most ridiculous subject we j1s were mercilessly forced to endure for the entire torturous year has now come to a permanent halt.

i like chimness.heh.

hari raya 05

2005-11-05T02:30:00.000-08:00

the eve of hari raya saw my patience tested to its limit! i have a very unproductive unhelpful -person- living with me and i swear he should just flush himself down the toiletbowl coz he's friggin useless. yes.this is one person who has earned my utmost hatred and i dun gif a flying fuck if im making the identity of the person known!

and i missed the last episode of charmed.do not.rub it in.anyone.

i realised im a pro baker.ok...exaggeration! maybe on the road to becoming one....my marble cake was quote "very nice!!" wheees!! fai the baker is here! =)

hari raya. i actually had2 minta maaf from -the person-. that was all bull coz he needs to minta maaf frm me for all he has done to my family,not vice versa! ahh well...sacrifices i make to keep mama happy.luckily im quite an actress!!

nuff personal rattling.now rayaaaaaaa

green contact lenses.
light reddish brown hair.
permed hair.
gorgeousssss!!

spending so much time wif the rest of my family after the studying shit n whatnots makes me realise i wouldn't trade my maternal family for anything in the world! i love each n every one of them.i love siti.i love sleeping over at her place.never mind if she tends to repeat advices or wtv else stories...i can't imagine how i'd live without her!
and the love of my life now is my 1+yr old cousin Qarina! she's adorable to bits. im not the type of person who would gush at the sight of every baby on the street, but this gurl somehow made her way straight to my heart! ala i tayang her shoooo much! plusss she's sooo smoochable! and she makes the cutest announcements and gestures!

bottomline before i go into detail about every family member.....I LOVE MY FAMILY SO MUCH RIGHT NOW!

ok.so much jalan-jalan raya is taking its toll on me. i totally lack sleep for a few days now. oh and juznow had to go for ogl briefing. im in og1.ok.then got mass dance practices....i know nuts bout tj's mass dances!haha! learn i shall.

its now 2.30am. and i just came home.and im rather sleepy.no wait! im numb...yea...N.U.M.B

randomness of it all

2005-10-29T00:40:00.000-07:00

congratulations to me!
1) i got a job attachment at alexandra hospital!! so exciting!!!
yea dats uber far away....
everyone i asked says its far away.
like hello...wanna be abit more specific!?! where exactly is the godforsaken spit of land?
getting daddy to send me there. there's no way im gg to risk getting lost and risk losing the job or a bad report or wtv....

2) i made it thru the ogl interviews.eyin smartly pointed 0ut that i've got a grand total of 6 mass dances to learn...yea dats all of it! and within a short frame of time!ogl camp shud be funn!! =)

the chicken cheese sausage is sumpah addictive! i've bought it practically every day of the week.i think the aunty over the counter recognises me by now.all i need to do is show my face n she packs them up for me! such a reputation...

baking-frenzy has begun. ok..not quite the full-wing i anticipated.im too lazy to be honest.
i've got melting moments,cashewnut cookies and marble cake to get done by wednesday. plus my room is still not clean! cookie-check: m&m cookie and honeycornflakes done!!

i need to buy baju raya.or shud i just make do with the load i have? this sucks.

ama piah is officially going to b in singapore in a couple of hours.
and im getting paid my fees in a couple of hours as well.

plans for today:
get my ez-link card
watch legend of zorro with wara at great world city (yes i know its ulu-ated but the bugger insists on going since she's got a free ticket that can only be used there!!)
rush back home n get changed
go to siti's place.

sunday is official cleaning up day! i promise x100
i need to get started or else.....nvm.

need to go back to school on wednesday n friday at 8am! like wth.one day b4 and after hari raya! im swamped with chores.this is the only period of time i actually have very little choice but to help around. and it actually works up the mood for the season so yeah.....

a sudden thought occured to me. i like writing. maybe i should broaden my career options and consider journalism if i dun get to where i intend to go...

this is what happens when you sleep from 4-9pm.
ur unable to sleep and end up typing random stuffs.....as demonstrated above.